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I wish, I wish to kill you. I wish for your pain, suffering, desperation. I wish for your death and your sorrow . I wish to drive reality inside your head and force you to see the world as it is, cold and merciless , unforgiving and twisted. Yet you cannot understand , still after all these years.... your hopeless. you will die alone because you are unwanted, unneeded and nothing more than scum. Do the naive go to hell? Or is heaven where they bask in their own stupidity? even in death the thoughtlessness never vanishes. If that is what heaven beholds, that is the last place I wish like to rest. It is said to be a city of gold. Is it really? Or is it just a forgotten land filled with childish dreams. If that is indeed the case I believe hell is much more suited for the likes of me. Hell must be what the truth beholds, hell must be a place to embrace the so called sins of the life you had once lived. Hell must be where the pain of the past is burned deep into your soul to a point where it cannot be forgotten. Where all the haunting memories cannot be lost. A place where dreams don't exist, a place where all you can see is the gut wrenching truth behind the lies you tell yourself in order to move forward. A place where it doesn't matter just how much it may hurt to see what twisted and cruel creatures we really are, despite how much our minds reject what is right infront of us. And despite how blind we may be right now. There is no turning back from what has been done, nor can you tell what the future beholds. A place where our bodies are engulfed in the flames burning, melting, and binding the truth to our very cores. We mustn't fear this pain, we must embrace it, we must, accept it. For when, or if, I arrive, the tears of the past , present and future will forever be remembered.
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