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I now realize why I keep taking pictures of myself in black and white.
In my mind, my morals are black and white.
Everything I can express with myself and all you can see is black and white. I wish you could understand how this crazy, terrible crush is eating away at me, but I can never tell you.

This is a friendship I shall not waste.

Why does my heart beat fast around you? Why is it that I always put you first? I can't stop thinking about you, and you always leave me worrying. What is this sick fantasy?

I wish I could only try to be the one you wanted. Dye my hair blonde, get blue contacts, drop weight. I could never be yours, because I could never be me.

I still want you, though.