just gonna stand there and watch me burn
that's alright because i like the way it hurts
just gonna stay there and hear me cry
that's alright because i love the way you lie
(that song is magic right now... ^^)
halloween was fun~ watched Paranormal Activity, wasn't the greatest. Shioko's kidding me because I told her that "It's too professional to look homemade, but too homemade to be professional." jeebers. :S
finished all applications!! whee got the Kypers (or something) Scholar offer from Dordt... urg. Not gonna do that, lol........ 2 grand scholarship each year, but is it worth it for all that extra work?
nope.
i love the way you lie....
i love it when i don't ever know how to react to you, i love it that you're so imperfect that you're realistic, i love how i always freak out about the little things to make my life more interestingly difficult.
i hate that i never know how to act around you, i hate how when i compare you to someone else they are always more appealing, i hate how my freaking out affects how i think about things.
... nothing as deep as junior high, believe me you. that was insanity's climax of stupidity, so compared to that everything else is just "meh"... makes me wonder, though...
sometimes i miss the good ol' days.
horrible headache now... prolly cuz I didn't go to the chiro this weekend after i discovered i couldn't turn my head to the right w/o my eyes kinda freaking out on me and shots of pain shooting through my skull... hah. heart
lonnie went hunting for the first time, brought home some pheasants. was kinda disgusted with finding one's HEAD IN THE SINK, so i didn't eat any of the leftovers of it. because that's just kinda stomach-churning. ^^;;...
Jar of Hearts is also stuck in my head.... kinda creepy how this is exactly how i was feeling during a very certain time in my life quite a long time ago...:
And it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back
... yeah.
heading off to bed now.................................. been a long week, and it's only tuesday. =/
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