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*09262010*
Todays the day after homecoming .
I started out having the BEST day ever , My school had a parade (which i was in) && we won 2nd place for best entry ! i claimed it as the member of the club . Then stayed for the game , Which we WON against Evanston !!! Im glad cuz this is the FIRST time varsity won our homecoming game n 25 years . (:
-Well after that i went home to get ready for HOMECOMING ! which i was super excited about cuz my bf was pickin me up && everything . i was happy , we were all dressed up and ready to party !
Then all of a sudden , it went down hill from then on . . . ughh
He ruined my whole nght by killin my mood of dancing , he didnt even wanna get u from sittin on the bleachers to dance with ME !
(But the thing iss . . . im plannin n breakin up with him cuz i dont feel the love n e more like . . . i kiss him && say "ilovehim" and dont even mean it . so i dnt wanna break his heart but its whats best . . :/)
but okay back to the "STORY" -
well so i told him was gonna dance with my friends and that i would be back . well so i did , and when i came back after just 5 mins he was gone ! and i was like okay ? then i ******** cried ! wtf , he made me cry at the dance . . my cousin and my friends were there to comfort me . && i just forgot about it . .
But thats not the only thing that killed my night . . .
okay so i have this friend named eddie , && so at the game we were like the awsomest of friends and we hung out practically everday this whole week . . well when i came to the dance my cousin like totally lead him on and took him away from mee . .
like wht always happens , im always the outcast when it comes to guys and my cousin . . so i ignored it and tried to dance with him so we could like talk moree . .
i was wrong . . we slow danced at the end of the dance && he looked like he was looking for someone . . and that he didnt wanna dance with me but we did n e ways and he was looking for someone STILL ! ughh i knew it was my cousin cuz she kept leading him on when she likes my friend JOE ! ughh . . . :/ i felt crappy and jst left him after the slow dance . . i wasnt happy at all . i told her wht it looked like too and she didnt even NOTICE , i hate when she does that to MY friends . . sad
crying
Im always nice and fun but i always get hurt in the end :/