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Hello, this is the start of my new journal, so read this s**t and get the f**k out.
People piss me off to damn much. I need to get used to and over it. Whatever. Who cares. I have just realized I am losing my sanity. Kyle has taken it away from me. </3 I guess I just need a new start, but I dunno how to get it started.
I have a myspace, but I don't get on it all that much, which reminds me, I must check it. blue_emo_elmo@yahoo.com E-mail for it. I have a FaceBook as well. jackiewoodring@yahoo.com E-mail for that. I'm always on Yahoo Messanger. same as my FaceBook e-mail.
I don't wanna dig too deep into my past... Not much there I wanna remember. All I'm gonna say, is that if it weren't for my dad, my mother would have killed me. My parents are divorsed. Have been since the age of 4. My mother cheated on my father when he was working two jobs and she didn't do s**t except send me and my brother to school very early. I've been schooled since the age of 2...
When I was 7 I was in the 3rd grade... I had my very first asthma attack and the doctors recommened that I'd stay away from fury animals ('cause I'm alergic to them). My mother had three dogs so my father didn't want me to go there anymore... One moring before school started, my mother was dropping off my older brother and my father ws dropping me off. My father and mother had gotten into a fight about me not going to my mothers and all the teachers had come out to rush the kids into the building.
I ended up going back to my abusive mother's house 4 days a week... I was miserable... Sneezing every minute, every hour, 4 days a week... Gave me a big headache.
My older brother, George, is a douchbag and also a loser. He picks on people who are younger than him to feel better about himself. Pft. I kicked his a** so many times already and he still persisted to come at me.
My mother had a son with my 'step father?' and is my half brother... Whippee-f**king-do... He's a short, fat ginger kid... Ginger kid! I have dirty-blonde hair and blue eyes! I have no freckles (accross my face that is, anywhere else I will not say.)
I used to be emo, but I have stopped because I promised someone dear to me that I would stop and never do it again, even though he has broken my heart...
Anyway... I find that too deep into my past so I'll go to the present now.
I live full time with my father now. I am home alone most days and spend that time either plotting against people, starting drama (if there isn't any already), and talk to what friends I have on the lappy (laptop). I get stabbed in the back ALOT and I try to be nice, but it gets spat back in my face.
I listen to Blood On The Dance Floor, which is dirty techno. I don't know why, but listening to them makes me feel better about myself. I find it quite odd. I also listen to screamo, makes me wanna scream along and let out all my pain and agonizing memories...
I've been crying alot lately. Don't ask... Don't wanna talk about it...
I'm going to be a junior... Great...
McCaskey is the worst school ever, but I enjoy all the fights~<3! The teachers can f**k off and kiss my white a**. They don't give a s**t about our future, they just wanna get laid. They're not getting some from me. I guarentee that! I'm a virgin and I'm staying like that until I'm married (If I don't get married... Meh... I'm not having sex, so don't think that you're gonna get laid from using cheap pickup lines on me).
Kids are monsters... I say that because I have neices that are twins and a nephew that has ALOT of hissy fits, but I can tell that he is going to be alot like me so one day I'm going to steal him away and make him help me with bringing hell to this world even more, but we'll be in charge.
If I'm going to have kids, it'd be with my significant other that is VERY like me, so we can raise them together and munipulate, charish, and love them to the depths of ours hearts put together. Munipulate them you ask? Meaning to teach them of the worlds evil ways and that you can barely trust anyone.
Any questions just ask away... I may post some more... May... Depending on my mood.
Have a nice day.