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Wouldnt anyone dream of being king of da school, or even queen? confused people pretend that they can actually b the one in center of attention. Every person has their own images of thier own "Perfect world", being center of attention, rich, smart, funny, more friends, and other fantasies.... what kind of world do i picture?.... i picture all of those things but mixed into one messed up world which is wat im living into now.... but everything that i imagine always turns out to b da wrong or bad idea.... [being centered, nope: lower class] [rich, nope: average] [smart, nope: so-so] [funny, nope: boring] [more friends, nope: boring, not funny, "u havent done that, youve never experienced it"] sometimes you wish that life is like a fantasy... but no... nothing goes perfectly, nothing goes on wat u plan, nothing continues to stay with you forever.... when i look back into my past, ive done some idiotic things.... i regret doing wat ive done, but i cant change the past.... i have to keep living my life to its fullest.... ignore everything that hurts... b happy to da fullest... my life is different... people leaving and entering my life, i miss so many past adventures.... everything changes and doesnt always stay da same, family member that leave, fighting, friendships broken... many things ive done, ive regret... i wish i didnt mess with my friends lives... the sadness ive caused messed everyone around me... i dont deserve to have a fantasy of my own.... my own world broke into pieces that i cant find anymore. mrgreen

Posted by: Nightsky101 Wed Aug 18, 2010 @ 05:43am

No matter whatever happens, ill still be right by your side....

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Sun Sep 19, 2010 @ 01:06am

Sometimes the fantasies that we have are too much our own and not much of others. The hearts of others are not our own and we cant change how they see the world. All we can do is point them in the direction we want them to go but, even that wont do. Each path that we choose is different and we could be strong and keep walking or we can become weak and fall into the never ending darkness.
Darkness clouds eveyones heart but, we need to learn how to trust the light inside. Like a flower, our hearts bloom with every emotion.
As the sounds of dripping rain fall, i look up, and I soon realize the secrets that i've been hiding in myself. As i understand, I start to feel wet drops on my face. I think its the rain but, it's actually my own tears, streaming down my face. What is that feeling i so fondly search for? What is that feeling that i get when i see a happy smile?

As I try to understand, I see a warm light and a beautiful word........love.... heart

I will keep going on this journey, so that I can feel that feeling once again and who knows: maybe I can share that feeling and my secrets with someone special.

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