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*Breathes in, Breathes out Damn it! Just say Inhale and Exhale What’s so bloody hard with that!? Okay Get over it- Then Cries then Laughs Oh smiles first. Looks at the window stands from where you sit and looks closer see’s birds singing then a tear fell over the floor wipes eyes.*

Sometimes Life is like Seasons and so do people, They Changes rapidly leaving you wanting craving for more. Its probably like seating in a front row of Paris’s Haute Couture with Anna Wintour on your left and Blake Lively on your right and other peoples are jealous because- because your sitting in the front row with the hottest people on Earth and it feels so damn right being the center of everything but when the show is over and everyone leaves you- you want more more and more. It’s like you wanted to buy everything you saw in the show and you begin to think. But that was in Fashion label In real life you don’t care about anything but him you don’t care if that’s the most famous Hollywood artist standing in front of you because for you he is just a nobody like everyone else in this world because you love the guy beside you holding your hands, that’s why you don’t see other people around you and you don’t care what people say because you’re in love even they thought you’re insane, you just don’t mind them you just ignore them. And without him you see the world and the difference of sadness and happiness in life. But then when he leaves half of your heart went missing too and the pain was extremely like you were being sentenced death.

*Sighs, you get a mirror looks at your reflection it begins to talk to you Illusions are starting to play you off, See damn things that makes you remember yesterday and you started to fall of from where you lay see some photos scattered in the floor closes your eyes thinks pray and cries.*

Your heart is shattered and Its like you were a rose fallen from its stem and then your petals are starting to fall of you begin to change color from blood red to soil brown. And to ease the pain you are feeling now, you try some distractions do extreme things like bungee jump in Australia dye your hair blue or purple get a piercing in the nose a tattoo in your belly or somewhere else and people staring at you like…Criminal. And then you begin to ask yourself what the hell did you do? And your conscience started murmuring The only thing you did was love him and that’s not a crime and the other conscience told you that Duh! Who will not think you’re a criminal or what!? You’ve got piercing’s tattoo’s and really blue or purple hair!?

*You lay on your bed cries think of suicide but no. Thinks of your family and your dream’s you get so sensitive and fell asleep and dreams.*

Summer, the season you fall in love find love and realize what real love is. the season of pureness and madness. The most memorable season of your life, because you know in this season you’ve got tons of memories with him. And things are extremely alright. But then Autumn arrives the season you loathe like hell because he took him away from you like the leaves that fell from the trees and the wind began to carry him off without you. Winter is coming you can feel it from the very first sign of it The cold wind you hate because he’s gone and no ones going to wrap his arms around you anymore and kiss you in the forehead and say i love you. You wore the same sweater you always wore you think of him constantly and wonders if he thinks of you too. You started to write him loads of letters but never send it, After a month of hopelessness you threw the letters into a bin and a minute later you realize something and you go cry like a little kid whose ice cream fell over and rush like the wind and get back the letters from the bin embrace it like it wasn’t thrown a minute ago in a dirty place. You are insane your brother says but you don’t mind and just simply walk away. Spring comes a shed of hope lights in your poor loving eyes. People are starting to see hope to a new beginning and so are you. You’re not going to try to move on instead its a hope for you to see him once more again, and God will give you light in your dreams and kiss you in the forehead and says don’t worry he’ll come back you just have to patient…

*Wake Up see the light from your window and smiles Life is full of surprises and you stands up from the bed and glad you’re still alive and awake now from the nightmares you have gone. You’re now Strong and your heart remembers now what it should remember and Prays thanks God and whisper in the wind Take care of him cuz i believe in God- He will not let me down, Amen*

God might have taken something from you now but he will never leave you empty handed.