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I just feel like a mix of lonely/empty right now, least those are the only words I could think to describe it. I just wanna talk to someone like...my old friend on Gaia. I really did like him a lot. I mean its not like we were cybering noobs lol, we never did that but I could actually stand him.

I didn't have to always be the one to send him a PM, and he made me feel like I wasn't annoying when I do send a PM. When I love talking to someone, I have the tendency to send a message as soon as I see them online, yea the friend that won't stfu lol.

He never changed his avi which was strange, but it was cute already. I felt like we were just a match, as what? I don't know, but it felt like I could spend hours just hanging with him. I miss him, I miss him a lot because all the people I love to spend time with on Gaia, he logged off and never came back.
It was painful...I remember thinking 'well maybe something went wrong like a broken computer' So I kept posting on his page little stuff like 'lol my b-days coming up soon! dun miss it ;P' then a month later 'aww you did miss it, aw its k. Merry Christmas and new years'

Next thing I knew it was another holiday and it seemed like half the year went by. I asked my other friends what happened to him. They didn't kno, he never responded to any comments, even any that just asked if you quit gaia can you plz tell us? or are you ok?
He just disappeared, and when he did I felt so...like how I'm feeling now....I just want that feeling back



ANYWAYS I know I'm having like a depressed moment right now but its just a kinda passing mood I get when I remember it. Otherwise I'm all good, least I would have been had we not cleaned the garage today. I HATE bugs and there were SO MANY ******** SPIDERS! AND THEY WERE LIKE AIMED AT ME!

NO really! I mean Even when my mom just asked me to sweep the ******** dirt up as soon as I grabbed the broom and moved it a tad, the BIGGEST (of the day) SPIDER RUNS OUT OF THE BRISTLES! I shivered and pointed it out to my mother. The damn thing was so big that when she stepped on it, it left a huge blotch and trail of its guts on the floor.

Other than that spider the rest were the same but they just kept finding me. Hell I hosed down this garbage can we use for recycle. It was completely web free and the spider that was on it, I let get away because it was on the ground.
So they dried and when I came back to move it I pulled my hand back and shuddered/shivered. The same spider climbed all the way back up the can to the lip of it, as if to mock me. Needless to say I killed the little b*****d...I gave it a chance to run.

My legs felt like jelly, my arms felt like playdoh, and my back ACHES. The garage looks great tho...and I did sneak in some naps during the job anyways >.>