Life is boring now..
There's nothing anymore, but everything is still here
I guess what i'm trying to say is that i don't see clearly anymore.
I'm confused i know that, disoriented and weak. I have absolutely no
idea what i'm looking for. Thriving for, fighting for. One thing i like are sounds
Different sounds that appeal to me, making me feel safe that's all i know.
The sound of you saying "I love you"..The one of you calling my name, not his or hers but mine. Its just like you said i would be, lonely, lost, sad, and empty. So many things happen everywhere around the world, new babies being born, and at the same time people dying. Someone's nightmare, is one of the most lovely days for someone else. There only feelings that guide us. Relationships being broken and relationships being formed. The things i hear that disgust me are occurring. I wanna leave, just.. don't know where. A place out there that's perfect for me. I never want to forget anything. Progress is made. We're nothing in the universe just as tiny as a cell. How can we be greedy and selfish, it shouldn't be. Even so it'll still happen, just like it did. Just how it will and will always be. Fighting for something imaginary. I also think that the limits on progress we put are pure stupidity. Let me be, let me live my life.. I just want to enjoy it. don't hold me back, because you can. You know you can. You've always known...Don't over complicate it, don't don't don't. Its not how its suppose be, keep your selfish and greedy mind away from the simplicity of it. I want to imagine good things but those things might not be good for other people. We have words and expression for everything it should be enough to know how someone feels when things happen, when it happens, all of it. I'm not myself. i feel trapped in a body encased and bound to this walking impurity. Whatever i think, it does. I don't like it that way, rather whatever i want and know in my heart is right and in my soul.
(There's so much that went unsaid in this because my body needs sleep. but my mind still wants to go and write what i know my thoughts are)
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