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Have you ever felt that huge, chilling glass wall between you and another person? A family member, maybe, or a friend close to you? You want to break through or jump over that glass, but, you have either been rejected so much, or, you feel as if you are far to sadistic or malicious to reach out and grab their hand.

These thoughts have been racing through my head for some time now, and, it seems that the people around me expect to just shake it off and move on in this industry of a world. Just let the others tug on your strings for you, and your loyal puppet will obey. Pffft, right.

This is probably just turning into an angst journal entry of epic proportion, which is why it'll probably not be read. The author knows that it annoys people to high hell.

But it's the angry within me that just causes me to write, and write, and write. Why can I not take a breath everyday and feel just... happy? Why must everybody intrude on my happiness...? I struggle, and struggle, and struggle to latch onto that tiny ray of positive life that I catch in my flimsy net, but, sooner or later, some other selfish person passes by and smacks it out of my hand for themselves, like a butterfly. So now,

Everytime I cry, I try to remember
That butterflies can't stay in your hand forever
Everyday I see your face, meandering by
I hold my heart in, with a painful, meek sigh
I love it when you're in my net
But everyone else seems so upset
So then I realize, it cannot stay
So I must let my butterfly soar away...

But what if I want my tiny little butterfly to stay??!?! What if that butterfly is the only thing that keeps me warm on the inside? Why must I just sit and watch it fly, and go farther and farther and farther away from me? I cannot imagine why the people surrounding me like a poisonous blockade do not understand that my happiness does not mean that they cannot smile as well

Of course, I understand that some people have it far more difficult than others, but that should not stop the people who are better off to assist those in need of a simple hug, or even a smile in their direction

But then again
I'm just a naive teenager