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okay so ima whine about high guy, cause being the stupid feckin idiot that I am I have still not managed to get over him compeletly. I mean s**t, its not like he totally ******** around and had a kinda girlfriend while being with me... oh wait... never mind. oops.
okay so since I cannot get this stupid arse outta meh brain and cant talk about it here goes:

right so, okay the stupid arse has totally done this on purpose I think. so I was all completely over him and junk and then I was like hey look im all not crying everynight and junk. I was happy. of course that couldnt last. I mean s**t. what am I a jobbie or no? jobbie! cant live without the self made drama... *shakes head*

okay so I was over him after texting him and telling him I was sorry about meh not texting him because I didnt want to like him anymore, so I felt bad and was like I realsies miss you and im sorry if I hurt yer feelers but I dont wanna be in love with you as you dont even like me even a little bit as anything more than a friend. and he was all nice-like about it, cause of course he cant just be nice about this and be a total a** which would make this soooo much easier on me.

well I was over him after having texted and apologized fer being mean to him. cause im a tard. I felt all better didnt go through the withdrawls of textin him all day. I didnt feel super mean-like or anything. and then I was happy again. no more tears and no more worrying. I was chill. fa sha.

Until I got home. and then bein all happy everyone has to ruin it fer me.
First thing: mom- did they tell you that hi's not gonna come to graduation?
Second thing: tina: did hi tell you that he's not gonna go to graduation?

then I thought: okay I know were not realsies texting very much but... why didnt he tell me this? thats fecked.

Third thing: tinas facebook: cute picture of hi all adorabibble
-this is when I fell for him again-
Fourth thing: tinas facebook: headline- somethin about havin a job and junk...
-this is when I got realsies offended-

I had been there for him through his hardest times of bein out of jobbie corpse, he lost his fake girlfriend, couldnt sleep, didnt like his old friends and was all aloney basically, I stayed through it and talked with him, he couldnt get a job, I continued to tell him he was jesus and dont get too depressed everything would work out. I am like (well was at the time, ah who am I kidding still am) totally head over heels for this douche and he didnt even mention that he had got a job? he didnt tell me that he wasnt goin to graduation, still hasnt, I mentioned the job thing, otherwise he probably wouldnt have. now he's sleepin and has a job.

when I tried to text him he was busy, so i didnt text him again fer another couple days,,, and guess what, he was goin to bed and couldnt talk. yea....