I just want to give up. I want to run away – far from you. Far from ‘her’ and all the other ‘hers’ that may come. I want to run… curl up and cry until all the water in my body had been sucked dry. You say everything you say to her is a lie. But I don’t believe you. I don’t think I ever will… Is that why you change your mind so much about me? Why your profile picture is you holding her? Is that why when she says how much she loves you, and how you’re the best thing to her, you reply, saying that she is too? Is that why you’re ******** me up? So maybe if she leaves, you always have a pitfall? So you always have someplace to go? Somebody to screw you, and hold you? Is that all I am to you? Why do you seem to love me more when I am finding other people? Why?! And why won’t I just give up and run? Why won’t I just give up and move on, so I can stop feeling like nothing? Why? Because I cant. Because I have always loved you, and I always will. I will always come back to you. And I will never forget how you used to hold /me/ and tell me you loved /me/.
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