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I sit on the floor crying next to the lap top. i flick the cig in the dish puting it out on my arm watching the black ring slowly vanish.
Louie: you dont react to the pain from that like you used to
Kumori: im starrting to get could and dark lose tuch of my feelings
Louie: i love go happy carefree cluts you . its u its the part of u. NAgel liked thrta part too
Kumori; it hard to b like that when im so depressed like this. i just wishhhh he come back. I wouldny care about being treated like a princess or a queen or sex all the tim or cuddling. just to know he's gonna be with me i wont care if hr miss chrimas or even my brithday just that i could know we where going to be together for ever.
Louie; i know you do and you are a godese so yiour god will come back later propose to u for real and youll get married and heel knock u hope. that has to happen or ture love does not existe and love has died in all sense.
Kmuori: aw thank u i got to keep postive its hard
drinks some rum playing with the knife
Kumor: how are we planing to get another rose.
Louie: hu iidk he siad they where realy rare
Kumori: im loking them up on the internet theyr realy expencive. and hard to grow.
Louie: hay didnt he say he had some growing or he grows them.
I get up runing out side. I run though the snow into the granden. i run to a flower beed finding one on wilted rose hiding under the others. i pick up the dryed rose pedals from the flower bed sliping them in my bra. i slow run across the cold yard the snow burn the sorows on my feet. i slip on a sheet of ice struggling to keep my blance.
Irun inside fall on my face cuting my breast with a torn from the rose.
Kumori: ahh i cvcut my breast lets go take this rose to kihak.
at the hospitle.
Kihaku: mom you are her
Kumori: yeah
kihaku; hay is dady here i want to tell him ive got a exrate puddin for him i save it hide it from the nurse i knowits not the greatist but its some thing...
Kumori: oh he was here earler you mised him i bought another rose
i lok over at the other one sighs.
Kihaku: is thatz the one he gave u..
Kumori: ahh. yess.. but he we thoughu like it alot
kihaki: just cause im sick dosent mean i disver some thing likethis ill trade u it for u to give this pudding cup to dad...
I smile: ok good deal
i take the pudibg cup and the rose placing the other on his bed stand i put it in water.
Kihaku: kiss it momydad said your a goddess maybe itt help it stay alive.
i lean over kising the rose the kiseing kihaku.
kumori: go bye sweet heart dream good love u rest dont worry ill deliver your gift sleep tigh.
i turn off the lights.
i walk out inthe hall.
louie: theres sill rose pedel in your bra and i think theeir blooming.
i look down
Kumori: i cant tell..
Louie: and your hands blledin from the rose
the bllod drips down therose on the floor,
Kumori: oh my bad. i hope one dad angel will come for real and well be happy. or at least to be with him again.