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I feel like s**t. I feel like helping my friends out, giving them random gifts etc so that they feel happy and such but at the same time there's a part of me that wants something back, more then a quick thank you. Sometimes I think I'm the Last Honest Gaian because I have gold and I dont spend it on myself. I used to have 5 mil in gold, pure and now I'm down to 2 mil. I know you may think that's a lot but that's 3 million in gold that I've given away to people. 1 million to help a friend who I still dont know if she really cares about me. I quest for others because I have nothing else to do? Actually I'm very active on Gaia, mainly in Barton Town, but also other places. I quest for them because I want them to feel happy. I've quested for items off their wishlists as well as amounts of gold for their huge quests. For some reason I feel like I have less friends when I started then I do now. I hate this feeling. I want to be selfless, yet selfish at the same time. Should I just give up and give my Angelic pendant to the person I'm questing it for and lose 100k or more. I mean I love my stuff but I dont actually wear all of it. I'm so confused.