Right why is it that when a father (most fathers with some exceptions) promises to come and see his child...he dont ******** show up...and then sends his mother onto facebook (seriously whose ******** mother has ******** facebook) to make up sum lame ******** excuse about the snow..and i mean fair enough but this is the FORTH time. You know after you leave your girlfriend/fiancee who has postnatal depression...in a house which everyone seems to scream in...with the five month old child that you got her prgnant with when she was FIFTEEN!!! this child has a cold and is teething at the time so is always crying...and also stuck with the social services who think her family is falling apart and she doesnt have much left. is it ok..to promise to see your daughter then not show up FOUR times? is that ok? because in my world it isnt.
You see, on halloween of 2008 i fell pregnant to my boyfriend callum. I didnt find this out until like december. but a few days after i went home (can i mention he lives in scotland and i live in england 2hours apart on train) we split up AGAIN and i strongly suggest it was because he was cheating on me. but i had this feeling i was pregnant. i had a test in my drawer which was ment to be formy friend shireen. but i used it...just in case..and it was positive..i was in tears..so i went to the doctor. who confirmed it FOUR times. So the nurse let me stay until my granddad collected me..who wasnt happy. and took me to his..to see his gf...and told her..you know last person i wanted to tell...but anyway..wen my nan came home she rung an he told her on phone i was well pissed off..and i went home and locked myself in bathroom. she hardly spoke to me for weeks. I phoned up callums house..and his sister katy picked up..she really annoys me..and said he wasnt in..i was near in tears and she could tell and i told her...she was like OMFG and said he would ring when he came in. so u know he did and i told him etc. then shortly after i think i was 5month he came tovisit and organise him moving into OUR house. and on the friday we went to a party with my nan..and he got a few pints..then we went to my friends and her slutty mate was there and kim..so etc we drunk a few etc..we were gonna sleep..but i was moved onto the floor expecting him to follow...but he didnt..he stayed on sofa with..HER...snogging and everything...i knew they were...i left...straight for the door...had a f**..and walked off...and you know what? they shut the door...so i went home..picked up my scan pic and a knife...and went back..got him up off the sofa wiht HER and brought him to the door...gave him the scan pic..and then the knife...and started to cry..and he stated checking me over for cuts. i hadnt done nothing. he asked if i wanted to go home..and i said yes..so he said he owuld go get our shoes..and i HEARD him..wake her up..and KISS her goodbye...he went home the next day..i didnt even get a goodbye never mind a kiss...so is sent him a test saying "funny how the girl you have never even met gets a kiss goodbye..and the girl you asked to marry doesnt even get a goodbye" he rang and apologised...said he didnt think i noticed...that it was her...i know it wasnt but i forgave him.
Right so i have this baby, I call her Suzie after my mum..which he jokes about with his mate that its a dogs name..my mum died in 07. he dont tidy up, moans about getting up during the night, complains when i get postnatal depression, doesnt help, moans coz im to tired to do owt, steals money, then when i have shouted at him none stop says he is running home to his mammy for a BREAK! from ******** what?? SITTING ON HIS FCKING a** DOIN NOWT BUT STORM OUT and go out and be shouted at and eat our food and sleep...
then when he promises to come down 4 xmas to spend with his daughter..doesnt...then boxing day..nope....monday nope..and now today...NONONO he is apparently coming this saturday like to see that happen
 Xo Princess Shazzy oX · Wed Dec 30, 2009 @ 10:29pm · 1 Comments |
