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December 13th, 2009: 7:36 AM,

My heart is beating out of my chest and I can feel it all over my body.. I don't understand why my heart aches this much. Slowly I think about the good times we had.. Holding each other during winter.. kissing until the day ended. I miss those days we had back then. I miss the times when you giggled from my jokes.. the time I made you feel like I was the best guy out there.. Why did I have to let you go... During these past few days, I've seen you through the sidelines. I've wanted to reach out to you..but my call couldn't reach you. I had my mistakes in the past and I am willing to change. I can't stop thinking about you..constantly I dream about you wishing you were here beside me once again. I miss how you blushed when I kissed you and the way your body heated up when I held you close. When I thought my life couldn't get any better..I threw my happiness along with you. If only you came back and understood how much I miss you.. I..I will never hurt you again if you only came back to me. I know now how actors feel in movies where their lover slips out of their hands and everything they do reminds them of their lover. I guess..I will have to wait. "If you love something set it free, if it comes back it was and always be yours.." No matter what happens..I will always be here waiting... I love you with all my heart... This feeling will always be in my heart.. heart heart heart