Wow its been a while since I really wrote anything in my journal. So bear with me through out it. If you don't understand anything I'm writing don't worry. In the morning, neither well I.
I've been awake all day and gonna be all night, I've been drinking, Green tea. Nope not booze tonight. Listening right now to "The Ballard Of Barry Allen." Haven't heard, it I say look it up. You will know whats going through my mind right now.
I know that I'm suppose to be a hero and such, its my dream to be a super hero and all. But even right now, I can't pull life together. I'm just sitting most of the day wondering what to do when I have time off. I want to work out and do something, but I'm always hit with something stressful with school and work. And if not that, then I get hit with something in my life that just ******** me all over. So instead of working out, or going out for a walk. I just fall onto my bed, or couch and close my eyes and grab anything near me that I can eat. I wonder if being a superhero is any easier. Able to solve problems that others know is impossible, making life not simple, but manageable.
Of course I know with those powers must come responsibility, but I can't help wonder if that is worth it. I mean, I would rather give up this crap life for one that is larger then the world.
I know there are some things in this world that even hit superheros, love, lost, death, fear, but that is what being super is about. We have to all go through that, but I rather deal with life or death then wondering if I can get to work today because my car might start or not.
Just, Sometimes, I wonder if given the option to be part of a super hero program. Would I do it? I don't know, I wish the option were real, no matter what I pick...
I've been awake all day and gonna be all night, I've been drinking, Green tea. Nope not booze tonight. Listening right now to "The Ballard Of Barry Allen." Haven't heard, it I say look it up. You will know whats going through my mind right now.
I know that I'm suppose to be a hero and such, its my dream to be a super hero and all. But even right now, I can't pull life together. I'm just sitting most of the day wondering what to do when I have time off. I want to work out and do something, but I'm always hit with something stressful with school and work. And if not that, then I get hit with something in my life that just ******** me all over. So instead of working out, or going out for a walk. I just fall onto my bed, or couch and close my eyes and grab anything near me that I can eat. I wonder if being a superhero is any easier. Able to solve problems that others know is impossible, making life not simple, but manageable.
Of course I know with those powers must come responsibility, but I can't help wonder if that is worth it. I mean, I would rather give up this crap life for one that is larger then the world.
I know there are some things in this world that even hit superheros, love, lost, death, fear, but that is what being super is about. We have to all go through that, but I rather deal with life or death then wondering if I can get to work today because my car might start or not.
Just, Sometimes, I wonder if given the option to be part of a super hero program. Would I do it? I don't know, I wish the option were real, no matter what I pick...
