Sometimes it's hard for me to point out the best things in life. Today, definitely, I had a really hard time pointing out the better. Today, I good a bad write up at work for not fully cleaning the bathroom properly the other night. I felt that it was unfair cause I had left earlier than when they close cause I had school the next day. Then, one of the assistant managers had to tell me again about it and I know she wasn't getting in my face about it or anything but I was still so upset about it that I flipped a lid and went off on her. I apologized later and told her that I was under a lot of stress but I still felt bad about it.......I still got over it pretty quickly though. Lol. But I was just complaining about how horrible my life is and how much I just want to die but right now I realized that I had nothing to complain about. I mean, yeah, Im under a bucket and a half full load of stress but I still have a house to come to. I am still able to eat and I am still able to sleep at night with a roof over my head. Some people don't have those luxuries yet I'm fussing because of too much stress? I do get lonely from having so much work to do and I do sometimes hate dealing with a father who wishes that I was never born but I still have it better than some people.
The night wasn't all bad though. I was able to talk to patrick. He was super upset at the begining ( I think it was cause he had to work on Halloween) but throughout the night he got a whole lot nicer and we started play fighting in the kitchen like old times. It was wonderful and it kept me from going completely coo coo bananaz. He is such an amazing person and I just wish that he would open up to me again (my stupid a** had to go and get attached in the wrong way and ******** everything up). Maybe sooner or later.
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