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...not so good...
Yeah...Things...they are bad...I...don't know...I'n not going to say my feelings on it here....that has only gotten me in trouble in the past...yeah...I'm sorry...I truly love you all. Whether you beleive it or not.

Ok. Here I am; sitting here typing this amungst my depression. I'm menstral...and depressed...thats never good. To keep my mind off things, I've been playing FFX2 like crazy(now 53% , was 30%), and drawing an impossible picture.
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This is what I am drawing...its harder than hell. It may not seem like it, but it is. I've been reading...a lot. Damn, I've even wrote stories and...songs(that are scary...not in the cool way either). I'm starting my doujinshi up again...with Masahiro and Makoto in it. I've planned to put Cobra, Masato, and even Ejak in it too...ok...maybe just Cobra and Masato...nah...Ejak could be a comic relief....? Oh hell....

I'm just one ******** up person right now...I even got slap happy yesterday...thats always bad with me...woah...I just took this quiz...and..well....
User Image - Blocked by "Display Image" Settings. Click to show. "It was all going so well. I can't take it, you know? Not again. Why me, you know? My life is so ******** s**t. I'm just a worthless piece of nothing s**t. Everything I do is s**t, or it turns to s**t, or I turn it to s**t."
Wow....that...coincidental is it ? Or...am I really that? Scary...






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Ejak
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commentCommented on: Mon Jan 16, 2006 @ 05:50pm
u know, s**t is a very essential ingridient to life. just remember, without s**t, there would be no flowers. unless there were more dead bodies, but then that would be a plague and animals would die and plants would flourish but be trying to use 2 times the resources with half of the original, then earth would be a big hell-hole. umm...flowers, yeah, remember the flowers.

(i got to magus sisters of FFX2, then i couldnt find paines special sphere. then played King Kong, its short, but its one wild ride. eww...)


commentCommented on: Mon Jan 16, 2006 @ 06:46pm
You have no idea what that really meant, huh? Its.....forget it. I'm not in the mood to argue...



Emi Snicklefritz
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Artemis Michiyo
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commentCommented on: Mon Jan 16, 2006 @ 07:51pm
i love you like a sister Emi.

Just know that I'm always there for you and you can always tell me what's going on!!

You have so many people who care about you....just..never forget it...Promise?

I get so frightened when you talk like this.. I don't want to see or hear your name in the news...on a report about..a suicide or a suicide attempt...

Please, I don't want you to ever have to resort to that.....not now....not in the future..

You have so many people who love and care about you now, it's just not worth it. Everybody has felt really bad at some point these last two weeks....but you and Masahiro always seem to worry me more than anyone else.....

Your loving sister,
~Michiyo~


P.S. Masahiro, I didn't mean that in a lesbion way. Thank you.


commentCommented on: Mon Jan 16, 2006 @ 09:05pm
Woah! I never said anything about suicide! If its that picture that you are talking about...I have no control over what picture comes out when I take a quiz! I got it off RumandMonkey for heaven's sake! I'm just depressed. I know that my life has value, I mean, c'mon! What would you guys laugh at without my doujinshi plans? Ne? I would never atempt suicide! I have before....but that is in the past, and do to my father. Nothing could make me want to stop living now. Look at all I have. I have friends like you, who I can trust. This goes for you too, Masahiro.



Emi Snicklefritz
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Yakino Makai
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commentCommented on: Tue Jan 17, 2006 @ 12:13am
I thank you for trusting me, at least that much....things are really ******** right now Emi, and Jake I promise you if you try to turn this s**t into a joke I will beat the living hell out of you, and I'm not kidding...if you think I am try me...Nobody is in the mood for your ******** up bullshit people don't care right now so ******** off with that crap.
As for you Michiyo, always stick by your friends...friends and family is all we have in this hell now...sometimes you might think you need more, but your friends and family hold all your needs.


commentCommented on: Fri Jan 20, 2006 @ 12:39am
ya know......yakino is right......without you guys......i would have been an emotional wreck right now........whoa, not bringing personal problems into this.....anyways........friends and family is all you have in this s**t called life......



cobra_wwe
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