*Thunk smack head*
Yeah it's been a long LONG time since I posted anything in this here journal. I've been so stressed as of late, anyone who checks out my journal on DA knows that. Right now, I'm really worried cause I gotta pay rent, but I can't seem to find a job that's hiring like, right now, this month, and I need that, otherwise I dunno what my dad is gonna do. It sounds almost like he plans on kicking me out, over twenty-five fekking dollars! Even so, maybe he'll try to take my computer, which he has no right to do! It's my computer, I worked my a** off to get it! 4 years in highschool with good grades to be exact! Besides, this is my main tool to get the info I need to get a job and sign up for college. You take that away, and I have the crappy relic upstairs that has a tendency to kill itself every few pages I browse on google. He could take away my phone... greeeeat, then I have to give the places my home phone, and I NEVER catch my home phone ringing, and much like the computer, it has a tendency to DIE!!! Die and screech horrible noises into my ear. I've gotten myself into so much trouble just because I wanted to start college later. I mean, I'm really screwed now it would seem. I don't have my license or money for rent cause nagging/yelling at me about it makes me want to avoid everything to do with them. That, and I have serious procrastination problems. Still, it helps when I'm not getting yelled at every here and there. Aren't I supposed to be happy now? It's almost halloween, my favorite time of the year! I'm graduated, I graduated with good grades, almost all my friends are still right here in town, but I can't go a day without becoming extremely stressed out now and/or blatently breaking into tears for no reason. I try to tell myself it isn't my fault, but it is, and there's no avoiding that, so maybe I need to shut up and just take it, there's people with much worse problems out there, but some times it's rough.
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