Apparently, I am trying to one up people by being as nice as I am and the ones getting pissed off the most? Christians! I do not understand it at all, but these christians have a problem with THIS christian. I understand it if my views are a little different than the already known denominations, but its not about beliefs this time. No. It's about them thinking I am deliberately trying to be a better christian than them!
To everyone here who does not know, I am a Christian, born and raised in the church, and following in Jesus' footsteps as best as I can. I have no problem with other people and their beliefs. I respect them for what they believe. I would never go around saying "Do it this way," "No, you're wrong. It's this," or "You'll go to hell for that". No, I just don't do that and refuse to. Every fiber of my being refuses to.
I tend to be nice by nature. I do have my times where I can be mean, but I never mean it. I cannot be mad longer than five minutes because I am always looking for what I did wrong as opposed to stewing in what other people do wrong. I hate blaming people for things, so I end up sacrificing myself and taking blames sometimes when it doesn't have anything to do with me, or when everyone worth talking to about deep things says its the other person's fault. I do not like being angry at people, I do not like dwelling on fight, arguments, disputes, or issues that leads to negative emotions.
If there is something that I can do for someone, I will be the first to jump up and do it if I have the ability to do so. I volunteer to help for pretty much anything that will benefit the other person and fits in my list morals. If I have to sacrifice time for other things to help, I will jump on it and try to get it done. If a friend needs help affording something, I will do what I can for him or her. That is just what I do.
If I have the ability to, I will throw parties, take people out to eat, take people to the movies, hang out with people whenever they need comfort, a friend, a nice little pick me up, something. I just do that naturally because I believe my friends or others should be happy or have something to be happy about, whether it is big or small. If someone needs someone to talk to, I will be there to talk to whenever needed.
I have been doing these things since I was in middle school and its second nature to me. I try my best to be the best friend possible because I felt I didn't do too well a job when one of my friends committed suicide a long time ago and she told me I was the only friend she had. Her life was hell and I held that guilt in my heart even today! I vowed to be the best friend I could possibly be for people, so this is nothing but me doing my job as a friend and nice person. If you have a problem with me doing so, that is fine, but don't go around and make me sound like I'm TRYING to be a jackass (Lord, forgive me). I'm not trying to be a better Christian than others, I'm just trying to be the best person I can be in the name of God for me and to help others and give them things to be happy about whether it helps a little or significantly. It makes me happy to see smiles on people's faces, it does my heart good to know I do the right things. If you think I'm trying to be better, ask yourself, what am I doing that makes me better than you? And why haven't you bettered me yet? If you are not going to try to better me, why are you complaining?
That's all I have to say... If I offended anyone, please let me know how, and I apologize. This was more against my stepmother and certain nameless friends I have outside of school and high school and a couple of people I know here.
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