"W-why must I be the victim to his own pleasure?
Why must he get joy into torturing and taunting me??
Hes making my life a living nightmare a-and I don't know what to do...
Sure your first approach would be to tell him to s-stop... But it didn't work...
He keeps going and going... Slower and slower I reach for the razor as I fall deeper and deeper into the blue... The blue and white. It drowns me... I hold out my hand but no one grabs it as he pulls me down... Why does he want to make me jealous? Why did he cheat on me and lie to me??
Why is everything falling apart..."
"... I'm afraid to admit it. Admit that I hate it... That I want to talk to the group we have at my school... Afraid that I need the other... The other who holds me and loves me... I need that other... I need the others... The ones that care..."
Why must I cry? Lol... It seems like I do all the time... The past few days I have... Its being a living nightmare!! : sweat:
Oh, those two lines are from a book i'm reading... There both very similar to the problems I have... *sigh*
I need to vent some more ]:
Me and my dad got in a fight last night... He threatened me and called me 'worthless' and a 'liar' again... I almost had a panic attack because of it...
Talked to my ex like my friend told me to do and he just laughed and is still trying to use me/take control when he has a girl friend... He isn't even a friend anymore... He doesn't even care about me...
... God I hate him...
I was invited to 'Christian Club' again. Its where you go and pray around the flag pole in front of my school and learn about God. My friend Justin gave me two little booklets to read because of this stupid girl told him whats been going on in my life... I feel like a jerk for not going but do I really need to go and pray for myself? Doesn't that seem selfish?... Well... I guess poeple do it all the time but still... There are others out there who have it a lot worse...
I'm sicker then ever! Got check out of school again for a 103 degree temperature and terrible coughing! I took medication today!! :3
My mom says if I don't get better soon shes taking me to the doctors... gonk
Nuu!! x__x
And two of my friends tested for H1-N1 ((Swine flu)) and were positive which is NOT good...
Gah!! I feel like a YouTube blogger!! Lol. I feel a lot better now :3 Thanks for listening ((reading))
Why must he get joy into torturing and taunting me??
Hes making my life a living nightmare a-and I don't know what to do...
Sure your first approach would be to tell him to s-stop... But it didn't work...
He keeps going and going... Slower and slower I reach for the razor as I fall deeper and deeper into the blue... The blue and white. It drowns me... I hold out my hand but no one grabs it as he pulls me down... Why does he want to make me jealous? Why did he cheat on me and lie to me??
Why is everything falling apart..."
"... I'm afraid to admit it. Admit that I hate it... That I want to talk to the group we have at my school... Afraid that I need the other... The other who holds me and loves me... I need that other... I need the others... The ones that care..."
Why must I cry? Lol... It seems like I do all the time... The past few days I have... Its being a living nightmare!! : sweat:
Oh, those two lines are from a book i'm reading... There both very similar to the problems I have... *sigh*
I need to vent some more ]:
Me and my dad got in a fight last night... He threatened me and called me 'worthless' and a 'liar' again... I almost had a panic attack because of it...
Talked to my ex like my friend told me to do and he just laughed and is still trying to use me/take control when he has a girl friend... He isn't even a friend anymore... He doesn't even care about me...
... God I hate him...
I was invited to 'Christian Club' again. Its where you go and pray around the flag pole in front of my school and learn about God. My friend Justin gave me two little booklets to read because of this stupid girl told him whats been going on in my life... I feel like a jerk for not going but do I really need to go and pray for myself? Doesn't that seem selfish?... Well... I guess poeple do it all the time but still... There are others out there who have it a lot worse...
I'm sicker then ever! Got check out of school again for a 103 degree temperature and terrible coughing! I took medication today!! :3
My mom says if I don't get better soon shes taking me to the doctors... gonk
Nuu!! x__x
And two of my friends tested for H1-N1 ((Swine flu)) and were positive which is NOT good...
Gah!! I feel like a YouTube blogger!! Lol. I feel a lot better now :3 Thanks for listening ((reading))
