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And if i was a sailor
I'd sail the seven seas
To tell you baby i don't want you to leave
A/N: I own nothing...

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This world is such a sad place and without your pretty face
I'm sure it's going to wind up much worse
And i know that you'll see someday that i can't live without you
And i know what i say is true
Cause i'm still stuck on you, girl
I'm in love for the first time i layed my eyes on you
Shoo tu tu tu tu tu do oh oh
There's nothing i can do-o-o
And i'm in love for the first time i layed my lips on yours
Now your walking out my do-or
There's nothing i can do-o-o
And if i could explore the world
I'd bring you along
We'd go to new york to tampa too
But truly i'm set right here
In dennys drinking coffee
And sharing a cigarette
And i know that you'll see someday that i can't live without you
And i know what i say is true
Cause i'm still stuck on you, girl
I'm in love for the first time i layed my eyes on you
There's nothing i can do-o-o
And i'm in love for the first time i layed my lips on yours
Now your walking out my do-or
There's nothing i can do-o-o
I'm in love with you...
Kari Yagami had fallen in love, there was no question about it, and she had fallen HARD. She fell in love with someone who came from a totally different world than she had growing up, but love knew no bounds... She had fallen in love with Kouji Minamoto. She was lucky enough to receive his love also in return, although he was reluctant to let her have it.
It felt like home being with him. He reminded her of Matt, the lone wolf, the bad boy, the careless heartbreaker, the misunderstood musician, he was exactly like Matt and the opposite all at the same time. She and Matt had had something together before, but it was nothing like the way she felt about Kouji, he made her feel complete, happy, he was like her other half.
The one thing that kept it all from becoming a perfect fairytale was Kouji's fobia of others touching him, she thought it would be different with her, but no, even her touch made him flinch. It made her unhappy. It's not like she wanted to.. you know... with him, she just wanted to simply be able to hold his hand, or give him a small kiss on the cheek, but whenever she tried he would retreat, pulling his hand away or tuning the other way. Every time he did this she felt a small pinge of rejection, she knew it was hard for him and he wasn't trying to hurt her, it was just hard for Kouji... but she would take whatever he was willing to give, and if that was just knowing that he loved her back and nothing else, well, then that was enough.
Kouji, on the other hand, was kicking himself in the a** for the entire situation. He was falling for Kari and he didn't want it to happen. He didn't know much about her, and love was something he was not familiar with, he didn't want to be in love, not now, not ever.... but then there was a part of him that was overjoyed whenever he was around her. When she smiled, reached for his hand, or even shifted her body towards him, his heart would start racing and he wanted to pull her to him and embrace her not caring who was watching, he wanted her to be his and only his, that was another feeling that confused him and to stop that from happening he simply would pull away, turning off the feeling before it could consume him. She looked so hurt whenver he did that and his heart nearly broke in half seeing the pain on her face as she would look away, defeated, this only made him want to reach out to her even more. And he was selfish, if really wanted Kari to be happy he would let her go, tell her that he didn't love her so she could find someone who could make her happy, but he couldn't do that, he loved her far too much and couldn't imagine her with anyone else, it hurt just to think about her in someone else's arms, someone like Matt. Matt who was a bit like him but could kiss and hold her without a second thought, Matt, who she could lay her head on his shoulder and hold his hand wihtout him flinching away. He always wondered why she had chosen him over her previous boyfriend, but never had the courage to ask.
One thing was for certain though, Kouji knew that if he didn't change soon, the feelings she had towards him would crash and die, and he didn't want that. After all, how much longer could he hope for love to outweigh ignorance...