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Less Is More Today
Why is my mouse acting all funky...?
*click.click...clickclickclickclickclickclickcli-*
Wait, I'm supposed to be doing something here.
*shuffles around, sits up properly, puts itunes on shuffle*
AHEM!
Now, that I've thoroughly situated myself, I think we can safely begin this journal entry without Worry.
Note the caps.
Because the last time I tried to write one of these it failed so epically I'm still not sure why I haven't deleted the darn thing. I mean jeez, what sort of mood was I in?
I have been really bitchy and whiny lately though. I wish I could make myself stop that. I don't have things terrible right now even if they aren't great. They're mostly okay, in fact, because I'm not thinking about those issues too hard. If I did I might break down and cry.
Alright, that might have been a slight exaggeration. But perhaps not. It's hard to tell when I'm in a good mood, which I am right now. (:
Don't you love it when you go into the bathroom and you look into the mirror and without meaning to you think, "Damn, I look good," and you even actually believe it?
I've been doing that all week.
Told you that I've been in a good mood.
I don't even care so much how vain it might be. It's so rare for me to feel really truly good about myself and I've been feeling a ton of that for the past week. I just... I don't know, accepted myself for what I am. I'm not super social, but I have friends I truly care about and would do ridiculous things for. I don't stay in touch with my family nearly as much as I should or could, but there's at least no major drama within it. I haven't gotten a job and I wrecked a car, but at least I give two shits about it. I may not be thin, I don't have an amazing body, skin, or fashion sense, but ******** me if I'm not as happy as a clam with what I got. And I'll happily flaunt it in all your faces, whether you want it or not, just because I feel. So. Damn. Good.
********, that's empowerment there for you.
I wish there was a way to bottle how this feels for me right now. I know that it won't stick around permanently, I'll probably go back to being at least a little insecure very soon.
I think though... that my self-esteem has definitely taken a permanent boost.
So I'll ride the high while it lasts, knowing that it will go down soon but it sure as hell won't hit the bottom again.
Now I've just gotta stop worrying about signing up for SATs, college applications, and scholarships and I'll have reached one of the greatest emotional peaks of my life.
*spins in her chair*
Run neon tiger, there's a lot on your mind...
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