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what is this life i live.............this emty void i wake to everyday. oh how many times i wish i could end it. but i couldnt leave her in this world alone. who will look after her when there is no one left? im the only one. who save her from the ugly and deceitful ones. only i. i wish i could just this place. leave it in the past. were it belongs. but i cant im 4ever apart of it. and i have no choice but to stay here. shes the only reason i stay. i would cross the 7 seas just to get to her. i wouldnt sleep 1000 nights just give what belongs to her. my heart will always beat her name. but now i feel as if she is far from me. i dont know what to do. she tells me to play her game to prove my love. i thought that my heart and soul and blood was enough. yes i have said things that i regret but were not all perfect. i wish i could take bak those things i said but whats said is done but it is not written in stone. we have the choice to change it. is my love good enough 4 anyone? is it worth anyones time? i only hope that this game she is having me play is one i can win at. i dont wish to lose her. that would b a nightmare. one that i cant remove myself from. one that will scar me everyday. one that will hold me in darkness 4ever.