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TLLF: Chapter 3 Part 2


Light in the Darkness


Deidara’s eyes fluttered open. He was still dazed and felt around for Sasori. He didn’t feel him, so he sat up and rubbed his tired eyes. He looked down at the spot on the bed where Sasori was, but didn’t see him. Deidara yawned, stood up and stretched. He looked around and he was alone. “ Huh, seems like he left. I wonder why.” Just then Sasori’s tears that fell on Deidara’s cheeks ran down and fell on his hands. Deidara felt them and wiped them away from his face. “ Tears?” he asked himself. Why, why was Sasori crying? I think I’ll check on him… he thought. Deidara stretched one more time. He walked out his door and closed it behind him. He began walking to Sasori’s room when he ran into Itachi. “ Hey Itachi-san, have you seen Master Sasori?” he asked. Itachi glared at Deidara and walked past him.
“ …He should be in his room.” Itachi said. Deidara watched Itachi leave.
“ Um, thanks.” He said. He walked down to Sasori’s room. Deidara knocked on Sasori door, but there was no answer. Deidara waited a few minutes before knocking again. “ Sasori-Danna?” he called. There was still no response. Deidara was confused so he opened Sasori’s door slowly. When he walked in, he was shocked at what he saw. Sasori’s room was all black and dull. Everything was covered with black cloth and the room was dark even with the lights on. “ S-Sasori?” Deidara said quietly. He walked around Sasori’s room in an uneasy pace. Deidara walked into Sasori’s desk and saw the voodoo doll. “ What’s this?” Deidara asked himself. He picked up the doll that was stuck all over with pins and held it in his hands. “ This is a…” Deidara’s eyes widened as soon as he knew what Sasori had made. Deidara stood in shock holding the voodoo doll of Sasori. “ D-Danna…” he shuddered. Deidara’s eyes suddenly became widened with worry. He stuffed the doll into his bag and took another look around Sasori’s dark, depressing room. “ What… What happened to him?!” Deidara left Sasori’s room and leaned agents the wood of the door still in worry. “ I…I got to find him before he does something stupid.” Deidara said to himself. Deidara hurried down the hall and into the main room. Deidara met up with Pein and he swallowed in fear. Pein looked down on Deidara and glared.
“ What do you want, kid?” Pein said coldly. Deidara forced a smile and he scratched the back of his head.
“Hey Leader-Samma…um, do you know where Master Sasori went…?” he asked. Pein just glared down at Deidara and tried to control his rage.
“ What about him…” Pein snapped. Deidara stood his ground but was cowering on the inside.
“ Heh, just wanted to know where he was…” Deidara made a fake smile. Pein looked at Deidara for a second then looked away.
“ He left. He’s outside somewhere. He was pissed off about something when he left…” Pein replied. “ Anything more?” Pein glared.
“ Nope, that’s it. Thank you Leader.” Deidara said. Deidara kept his distance from Pein then left outside. Once out side, Deidara breathed a sigh of relief. “ Phew, got away that time.” Deidara looked down at his bag where he was keeping the voodoo doll. “ Sasori…” Deidara saw the tracks that Sasori’s travel puppet made and followed them deep into the forest. Deidara came to where the tracks ended by the big bolder. “ The tracks end here… but I don’t see Sasori anywhere…” said Deidara. Deidara looked around and looked up. He saw Sasori’s hair blowing in the breeze. A wave of relief came over Deidara. “ Hey Danna!” Deidara called. Sasori didn’t move. Deidara’s face became worried again and he went to the top of the bolder where Sasori was. “Sasori?” Deidara said. He looked down at Sasori. Sasori was sleeping and his hair blew in the soft breeze. Deidara noticed a few tearstains on Sasori’s face. He knelt beside Sasori and looked at him with a worried look. Deidara extended his hand and touched Sasori’s face. Sasori eyes snapped open and he grabbed Deidara’s hand. Deidara had a moment of scare. “ Sasori! Its me!” he said. Sasori looked at Deidara then released his hand.
“ S-Sorry, you scared me.” Sasori said as he looked away from Deidara. I scared him? Thought Deidara Tisk, he almost made me pee in my pants! “ Danna…?” Asked Deidara. Sasori looked up at Deidara.
“ What is it Deidara…?” he said. Deidara paused before taking out the voodoo doll.
“ I was looking for you and, I found this in your room.” He held the doll in front of Sasori. Sasori’s eyes widened and he looked away. Deidara looked at Sasori for a minute before continuing. “ Do you mind telling me why you made this?” Deidara asked. Sasori looked at the doll he had made.
“ It’s…it’s nothing.” He said. Deidara looked at Sasori with a worried and irritated expression.
“ Sasori… if that’s nothing, then explain why your room is pitch black.” Deidara said. Sasori glanced up at Deidara. Sasori’s face softened with sorrow. Deidara’s face softened and he took Sasori’s hand. “ Please, tell me Danna.” Deidara said gently. Sasori’s face filled with sadness and he looked back at Deidara.
“ It’s just… I realized that…that we can never be together.” Said Sasori. Deidara sat in shock.
“ B-But…why not Sasori?” asked Deidara. Deidara’s face became sad and soft. Sasori shook his head.
“ It’s my body. I’m not a human Deidara. I can’t feel the same needs as you, and I can’t feel anything you do to me…and…your just so beautiful, with your glowing blonde hair, your perfect skin, and your beautiful eyes filled with life…and I’m just a lifeless, ugly, wooden, blood-haired puppet.” Sasori muttered. Deidara looked at Sasori with a caring expression.
“ Danna… I don’t think that about you.” Deidara took in a breath “ You’re not ugly Sasori. Your body doesn’t matter to me. I don’t care if you’re a puppet, or a human. I fell in love with the real you, not your body.” Sasori stared at Deidara.
“ But…I think I am. I look at myself, and all I see is a lifeless...thing looking back at me. Don’t you think it’s frightening when you see someone with a metal rope in their stomach, wooden joints, a pushed out heart, and a door in their chest? I can’t compare myself to your beauty. I used to see myself as beautiful, but then I met you…When I met you, for the first time, I wished I was human again.” Sasori said. A few tears fell from his eyes and he hid them away from Deidara. Deidara sat looking at Sasori. His face was sad. “ Its not like I want to leave you, but I have to. It just wont work out. You will get tired of me sooner then later. I’m just a toy to play with…” At this Deidara shook his head.
“ Don’t talk like that anymore Sasori. You’re so wrong. I love you, and I will keep loving you forever. Because… true love lasts forever Sasori.” Deidara said. Deidara moved close to Sasori and gently pulled him closer. He hugged him close to his body. “ Danna…don’t worry about your body anymore. I love it as much as I love you. Think about it this way, I have less chances of losing you then if you were human…and I am amazed with your body. I love every curve, every joint, and every fiber of your heart…” Deidara circled his finger around the Wooden plack where Sasori’s heart was. Sasori shivered and leaned his head on Deidara’s chest and closed his eyes.
“ Deidara… do your really…love every part of me…?” Sasori asked. Deidara gently wrapped his arms around Sasori’s body, held him close, and leaned his head on Sasori’s.
“ Yes Sasori. Every part of you is now a part of me. I will cherish it forever Danna.” Deidara said softly. A tear fell from Sasori’s eye and ran down his cheek.
“ Thank you Deidara…I love you so much.” Sasori said as he held Deidara’s arms close. Deidara made a soft smile and gently rubbed Sasori’s heart. “ Please…don’t ever leave me.” Sasori said in a soft voice.
“ I would never leave you Danna. I love you, more then you will ever know.” Deidara replied. The sun was nearing the edge of the mountains and the sunset was shades of yellow and orange. The green trees gleamed with the orange-yellow light and casted shadows on the forest floor. Deidara picked up the voodoo doll that Sasori had made then through it away with out disturbing Sasori. The doll fell in a pile of leaves and was soon covered by the other leaves. Sasori smiled softly and held onto Deidara. I’ve fallen in love…yes love is truly beautiful. That’s what Deidara is. Love. Sasori thought to himself. He smiled, and Deidara kissed his cheek.