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Falling Apart



As I lay in bed at night,
Paranoia takes a twisted turn,
Tumbling below schizophrenia,
The struggle within...
It takes me deep into dementia,
Falling apart in the darkest section of Purgatory.
Where I lay wondering,
With so many questions in my mind.

Alone in darkness.
A sharp pain comes across my face.
A pain that is unbearable to stand.
I fantasize of releasing all my pain in crimson.
Wishing for release from this dark world.

I start to think,
Why am I doing this?
She is what I live for.
I could never be in pain,
Over someone who I would die for.
Which side to choose?

What is happening to me?
Slowly, my vices are slipping away.
Slowly, my emotions are changing.

So many questions unresolved.
There is only one thing that comes to mind quickly,

There's someone that brings me together.
Someone that helps me take my pain away.
Someone that keeps me from ripping myself apart.
Someone who saves me from fading away.

It's her.