It just makes it that much harder when you can't have the person.
It makes everything seem less important & all you can think about is that certain person.
It makes those feelings heavier & heavier until you feel as if you're drowning.
But it's the truth, no matter how hard you try, no matter how wrong it is,
Or no matter how much you wish for it not to happen.
Sometimes feelings just become different & you can't stop that.
It sucks alot when it does happen though, cause it's you who has to deal with everything.
You have to deal with not being able to tell that person if they're with someone else.
The confusion of not knowing how the other person feels.
The frustration & pain of not wanting to ruin what relationship you have with that person now.
Not knowing if you should let that person know how you honestly feel.
Because if you did it would turn out two ways.
One, they'd accept your feelings & things would turn in your favor.
Two, they'd reject you & things would become different.
You'd lose contact or be ignored, pushed aside, forgotten.
You'd lose that small connection you had built with that person all together.
But then again, if you didn't, you'd be left wondering how he felt.
You'd lay in bed at night and make yourself crazy trying to figure every little thing out.
You'd upset yourself and let it consume you to the point of tears.
The the point where whenever you think about it, it upsets you.
So it's very scary, not knowing what to do or how to handle the feelings altogether.
It's nothing to be ashamed of & it's certainly not something that others should judge you on.
Because guess what?
That's life, it happens to almost everyone once in their life.
You can't help who you like, plain & simple.
