I'm so angry.
But I can't stop crying.
I don't understand what the hell is wrong with me.
I hate him so much, I wish I never knew him.
But at the same time I still love him.
I'll always love him.
It's not fair at all.
I've known him for 9 years now.
And now for him to say something like that.
If he had told me earlier I would have been okay.
But the way he said it, the fact that he doesn't even care.
I know I shouldn't cry but I can't help it.
They won't stop.
I'm such a stupid girl, always stupid.
I set myself up for this though, my fault I guess.
Now I just have to deal with it.
I wasn't expecting it be like this.
I hate him.
The fact that he doesn't seem to care.
But the fact that he no longer cares for me how I thought he did.
Was it just all lies that he told me, those phone calls we had?
All those times he told me how he felt?
Was it just lies and I was stupid enough to believe him?
That is what hurts so much more than I thought it would.
