I want to make some one happy. I want then to need me, love me, want me and not get tired of me. I want to be the thing in there life they can't live with out. I want one ******** person to truly love me for me. Why is that so hard...? Why is it I try to make people happy yet they're never truly happy and never happy enough. I'm never enough and I never will be. Try all I want and its always the same. I'm never enough, never good enough.
Truly happy is being content with your life. Sure there are things to complain about, there always are, but being able to look around and know you have it good or know the person your with loves you and you love them back completely with out a question or a doubt. Truly happy isn't completely and total happiness... it's just a state of contentment knowing things might be bad but your ok...
Making some one truly happy is the one thing I try for. I try to be every thing they need and want. I try to make them happy. But its always the wrong kind of happy or it's not happy enough.
They say you should make your self happy before you try to make any one else happy. Maybe that's my problem. Maybe I need to try to make myself happy for once. But what makes me happy? I don't know. I never have so I never have tried to make myself happy.
Maybe happiness and love is just fictions. Maybe the only fact is, your born and one day you die. What happens between it is just filler.
I have spent my life believing in true love. It's the only thing I really believe in. True, unchanging, non dieing, unconditional, love. The kind of love that lasts for ever. The kind of love you see when you see old people walking hand in hand. The kind of love you read about in romance novels and see in movies. The kind of love you hear in songs. The kind of love people dream about finding.
 HopeYouFall · Thu Jun 18, 2009 @ 04:08am · 0 Comments |
