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And Dream of Sheep... [NC-17]
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: Kyo x Soru
Genre: Dark
Warnings: Rape, angst, Obsession and suicide
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"Boku wa kimi no obsession Kyo-san...?"
Kyo walked into the darkened bedroom from the bathroom, having just taken a shower after the live Dir en Grey had just put on. His dark brown hair covered his dozed face and most of is tattooed neck. He sighed to himself and lit a cigarette from his pack he left on the nightstand in the hotel room.
"Alone again.."
He stood up, naked, but still draped in nothing but a bath towel, almost to small for him anyways. He took a puff of the lit cig and walked over to the Hotel rooms’ balcony and looked out the half open window onto the dark city outside, his eyes empty in angst for another unknown reason. He sighed and slumped against the wall and threw the cigarette at the window, sitting on the bed, planting his face in his hands.
Kyo looked around the hotels kitchen and through the bags he and the rest of the group carried, which the 'conveniently' stacked in his room. "God I'm so sick of this.." He said softly to himself as he pulled out one of Kaoru's pocket knifes he carried with him and put it to his wrist. "Sick of it all..." He said again, sticking it slightly into his skin, letting little bits of blood ooze out from his skin, not showing any emotion, he dragged the blade down the vein in his arm, but was soon interrupted by a loud knock at the door.
Kyo jumped up a bit scared, having not locked the door, and wiped the blood from his arm off with his shirt and ran to the door. For the first time this night, a smile crept onto his face.
It was Soru, or Kai-chan to him, the young woman he had been obsessed with since she had become one of their tour photographers. Every day, he would be around her, on and off tour and try so hard to get up the courage to tell her he loved her, but over time, Kyo's love for her became obsession over her. Endless thoughts about her raced through his head, why was she here, what did she want?
"Kyo-san, please let me in!" She whined from the other side of the door as he swung it open and smiled at her.
"Kai-chan, its 11:00 what are you doing?" He asked, standing in his towel still behind a dark room, the window open to where you could see the below city.
"Oh god, im sorry!" She said turning around. "I didn't know that you weren't dressed." She said bowing, her eyes closed tightly.
Kyo looked at her and couldn't help smile. 'She looks so cute and innocent bowing her head down like that.' He though to himself, then catching his thoughts. "Oh, im sorry, I'll go get dressed really quick and you can come in, okay?" He said, turning on a light and getting changed in the bathroom as Kai walked in the large hotel room and closed the door behind her.
'Okay, just don't ******** up..' Kyo thought to himself, head hanging, looking down at the white marble sink in the bathroom, dressed now. He walked out to the room and sat on the bed. "D-do you wanna watch TV or something, you know just chill out-t.." He said smiling at her nervously, holding out the remote, his cut now facing up and oozing a bit of his red blood down his arm.
s**t..'
Kai looked at his arm and a look of disgust and pain filled her face, from the happy one just a moment before. "I-is that from you?" She yelled at him, looking to the knife, still bloody and still lying on the kitchen floor as well, then running to grab a towel and wrapping it around his arm, looking pissed off all the while.
"I've always wanted you to do that..."
Kai looked up at him with a confused expression on her face, and stopped wrapping the towel around his arm. "Is that why you did that you ******** idiot?" She snapped at him.
"I just-"
"No, that's so stupid!" She yelled at him and went heading for the door, before having her arm grabbed by Kyo, a halfway insane look on his face.
"I didn't say I wanted you to leave yet." He said pulling her to him with much resistance.
"Kyo, quit it!" She yelled pulling back away from him, trying to get loose from his tight grip on her arm, his nails pressing into her pail skin, scratching it almost to the point of drawing blood. "Stop it!" She yelled pulling her hand back and slapping his face hard. "Oh my god, I-"
Kyo, with a stunned look and his head turned sideways from the impact, slightly let go of her arm, his nails still digging into it though. "Why did you do that?" He said standing up and pulling her to him, his nails digging into both of her arms now, to keep her from slapping him again.
"Just quit it, it’s freaking me out! Are you obsessed with me or something!?" She screamed, her arms bleeding from beneath his fingernails and her eyes swelling up with tears from fear and anger. "Please just let me go.." She begged him, her head down now, tears rolling down her face and onto his arms.
She had said it. Obsession. In fact, she WAS his obsession, he feared that fact for so long, but hearing it drove him over the edge. He clenched his fist into her skin "Gah, stop please!" She moaned in pain and jerked her head back, only to have Kyo's warm lips on hers, but in the state she was now, she couldn't, or better yet, wouldn't try to resist his lust for her. "Kai-chan, I love you so much." He whispered to her, then kneed her stomach harshly, making her fall to the ground, blacked out for now.
When she awoke, her hands were tied together and she was pushed into the hotel bed by Kyo's tattoo-claimed arms, and him looking down at her. She hurt to much to speak now and closed her eyes, waiting for it to be over.
"Kuroyuki... I love you, I just want you to be mine." He said dragging his hands up and removing her shirt and kissing her lips sloppily, lost I his own desire to ******** her in anyway he though was necessary. He drug his teeth up to her mouth, biting on her lips and then sliding his tongue along her lips, licking up any blood he got from her. Kai, now in tears moaned a bit from the pain.
"Kyo, please, why do we have to do this....?" She asked, crying now, turning her head away from him.
He brought her legs up against his sides and slapped her hard. He then stopped and brought his head down to hers, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to..." , Kyo said kissing her cheek where he had slapped it, then sliding his hand down and rubbing her legs. "You're so cute when you’re like this.." He said, and smiling with an empty happiness crossing his mind, he striped her of every item of clothing she had and nuzzled his head in her neck.
"please... no.." She whimpered quietly. Kyo looked up and hit her face again, making a red mark. "No, I love you I want this, I'm not letting you go." He said kissing the cheek he had once again hit. "Im so sorry..." He moaned into her ear, grinding his now hard c**k into her leg and pressing all of his body weight against her.
Her cheeks were now wet with tears as she lay there silent now, letting him have his way, hoping and praying it would be over.
Kyo pulled his pants and underwear down now and pressed himself into her, moaning her name into her ear and rubbing his head up and down her shoulder with sweat beading on his face in ecstasy. He thrust himself into her harshly without any care that it was hurting her so much as blood ran down her legs and she cried out his name, hating him for everything he did this night.
Soon after, his thrusting began to stop as he reached his climax and moaned her name, his whole body shuddering on top of her and his head rested on her chest as her pulled himself out of her. Her face was sticky with sweat and tears, and only for the first time in about 30 minutes she was able to catch her own breath.
Kyo looked to her and stroked her bruised face smiling at her softy, her heart pounding, wanting to kill him for what he had done. "Kai-chan, I love you...." He said kissing her lips and closing his eyes softly. She turned her face away swiftly however.
"I really love you." He said caressing her face to turn towards him. "I’m sorry for what I did I just, I'm not good wi-"
"Your ******** evil!" She screamed at him, trying to kick him, but her lips, tired legs wouldn't move, and her voice was barely able to speak. "I.. I.." She cried "I hate you so much!"
Kyo's eyes filled up with tears as he smiled at her "You have every right to hate me, and I'm sorry..." He said hugging her, not a violent hug, not a mean, dominating hug, a sweet, loving hug. Once again, Kai began to cry and she closed her eyes, falling asleep in his arms with him.
Later that night when Kyo had been dead asleep, Kai wriggled out of his grasp and walked to the kitchen naked, and squatted down to the bloody knife. "A life for a life..." She said to herself quietly as she slit the veins in her neck, and fell to the floor, her last sight, the beautiful man she had one worshiped, the beautiful man that had taken every last tear from her eyes, the man she loved.
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