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My broken heart I feel so depressed right now.... I don't know why though... I just can't get my first girlfriend out of my mind.... It's been two years, and still I cry in my sleep because of her.... She was my first girlfriend and we dated for 7 months... I know it's not that long, but it was the best 7 months of my life with her by my side... I think we broke up because of me... I was a n00b back then and I was really shy and afraid of intimacy at the time... Now that I look back, I acted like Junpei from 'Strawberry 100%' (if you read the manga/ watched the anime) I acted just like him... Shy around girls, but somehow I was really shy to my girlfriend... Just like Junpei was shy around Tsukasa when he first started dating her.... I really thought that we had something, but I was wrong.... I was too shy and she broke up with me... She said that "I need to concentrate on school, so I can't date you anymore." When she said that, I was just phased out... I said okay, and walked away.... But once I started biking home, I started bawling like a baby... I almost go hit by a car three times because I wasn't paying attention... and when I got home, I went up to my bedroom and cried myself to sleep. I didn't wake up until 10am the next morning... And every time I thought of her back then, I would cut myself.... I don't cut myself anymore. Now every time I see her, I can feel the hatred between us emanating from both of us. It's heart-breaking for me. We haven't talked since that fateful day, but I see her every day, whether I like it or not. I don't know why she won't talk to me anymore. We left on okay grounds, and I just want to get back with her just as friends.... And now every time I ask a girl out, they always give a lame excuse... "I can't be in a relationship right now." or "I just like you as a friend".... What's wrong with me? It feels that I can't fall in love any more. I can't take anymore rejection... please help me....

Posted by: sakabato24 Sat May 09, 2009 @ 05:24am

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Commented on: Sat May 09, 2009 @ 02:19pm


	thts something...well i dont rly understand y so many ppl "love" i lost one of my friends tht way and almost broke my leg because of "love" but my friend(a girl)her boyfriend said tht he needed to focus on his school work after tht she was so depressed she wouldnt stop crying then he called and asked to get back together so they did...now she has a new boyfriend since they broke up so much. whee 3nodding well since its ur b-day HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU nah i dnt wanna write all tht /)_/) ( ' . ' )-happy b-day sakabato! c w

Commented on: Wed Jun 23, 2010 @ 10:33pm


	I can honestly say I know how that feels. Nothing anyone says can make you feel better, because having your heart broken is one wound that only time can heal. How much time is part chance, and part your decision. You have to find a way to forgive yourself for maybe messing up that first time, and you have to try and close the gap between you somehow. I would write her a note, or an email, something like that, and then send it to her on her birthday. Something like, "I miss when we were friends... What ever happened to our friendship?" etc. and let her know how you feel. Broken hearts are tough to mend, but all has meaning in the end.

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