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Be happy, If it's the last thing you Do..



She doesn't even look in my direction
Doesn't matter to her i'm there
No other parent to care for me
Cause I heard life wasn't fair

While I sit here writing with pencil on paper
A word with every tear
Does she even know that loosing her
Would be my biggest fear?

I guess I'd choose myself to blame
Why I'd feel so ashamed
Of running away,
To a better day

Yeah, I've got my boyfriend
I'm sure he's the only one who cares
But who knows, He'll give me up
Tell me I can find better, even though I wouldn't dare

All she does is lay in bed
Untill another Doctor's appointment heads her way
Crying herself to wrinkles
Wishing her pain, Me, away

I guess I could understand why she wouldn't want me
********. Who would have the right mind
I was told I do absolutely nothing
And that i'm only good for my lies

No, I'm not those kind of people
Who cut their pain away
But even if I did
I'd still hurt the same

I wish that God
Would bring the right man to her
So she'd forget about me
And all the things I've done before

But one day, no matter how long it takes, she'll wake up
And let all of her pain fade
Open up her heart and let me in
And I'll show her the good that I made

So While I sit here
Writing with pencil on paper
A word with every tear
Do you know, Mom
That loosing you is my biggest fear?

I heard I was a mistake
Yeah, Condoms usually break
But I want to be more
My love for you isn't fake

I could tell you all day of how much I love you
But you don't understand
The three words
I hold in the palm of my hand

And if I could tell you
All the words that meant the same
I couldn't imagine
How much of my breath would be taken away..