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Hate,
I've lived
with everyone around
me hating me.

My family
filled with hate,
but only when they
gaze upon me,they
stare at me with
eyes filled with
blazing hatred,most people
would think their eyes
were the eyes of the
devil himself.

They
whip me,
beat me,
starve me,
stab me,
rape me,
anything to hurt me.

My friends
they all have hated me,
they've put guns to my head,
they've stabbed me,
they've shot me,
they've beaten me,
they've jumped and stole from me,
anything to hurt me.

My heart,
I numbed it,
I sealed myself
from trust,and everyone,
I even turned my back on God,
I'm sorry God.

But God
you sent me
the most amazing woman
in existence,I turned
to you God,embraced you,
and I love u God.

They all
now say,with the eyes of the devil.
"I hate you,
and now I hate God,
all because of you!"
Anything to hurt me.

Those words.
With those words,
they have thrust their
sword of excruciating torment,
and affliction right through
my heart,and now it's gushing
out the blood of my pain,and sorrow,
and now they have left me to die,
awaiting it,anticipating it even,they
enjoy every moment of it.

Why!
Why do they hate me so much!
Why would they do anything to hurt me!
Why do I have to always go through this!
Why am I stranded in pain,
all alone in the darkness of this world!
Why do I have to write this
with my painful tears streaming down my face!

God
I love you,
more than anyone,or anything
else in this world,
so please save me
from my pain,I'm
crying out,and I need your help,
so please help me,and
save me.
Please.





*btw this poem combines elements of my past,and my current preasent,most of my current friends arent like this,and im ok now,God has given me inner peace,and my gaurdian angel makes me laugh and smile,so im all good 4 the most part now*