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Hi there reader. I hope you don't mind me spilling my guts to you. Since you are still reading this, it seems you don't mind so much, but for both our sakes, I'll try to keep some guts in place... I need those to live, you know. whee

Well, mainly, I joined Gaia again for two reasons.

1. I was going to do it sometime, anyway. Why not start now?
2. My life just got turned upside down, and I need to fill up every ounce of it with something to do, so I don't have to think about the bad stuff or worry about things I can't change.

Number one is pretty normal an event, I guess. I plan on selling my art again at anime conventions, and most people that go to those have a Gaia account, artists and fans. This will be a nice place to keep track, and it's cute. Sadly, as I try to meet people on here, it's always hard for noobs. We jump into the forums all excited and ready to make friends, and the first thing that happens is people telling you you're in the wrong place, and that your ideas don't matter. Those are just the nice people, btw.

Yes, we should read the rules of each forum. I get it. I'll change my ways. Now, I just try to hop on to other people's conversations. That way I don't get blamed for starting something stupid. Works a bit, but there's so many people here, it's hard to not get looked over and ignored.

Today, I did find at least one forum with a happy reply. We'll see how that goes.

Number two... well. I am not at liberty to say anything about what happened. All I can say is that my life was looking up. I was getting things going, and on my way to becoming someone I can be proud to be. Then this happened. I didn't cause it, I can't change it, and I don't know how it will end. I can only hope for the best and thank God that He was watching over my family and continues to do so. It's a miracle really. Too bad I can't tell you what it is.

I will still become the person I want to be. I will press on. It will be more difficult now, but what would there be to be proud of if I didn't have to fight for it?

I still see the beauty in the life around me. I thank God I haven't lost that. It's the only thing that keeps me from becoming one of those people that never smile and are rude for no reason in the forums. lol

Thanks for reading. That's all for today.

Dneeht.