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Is it possible to take back what I have done
I listened to him over the phone he listened to me.
even though we had never met we somehow knew it would become a weekly ritual.
He would text me I would text him,
then he would call.
I would listen to him as he listened to me.
I remember the first time it happened,
It was like a blur.
When it was all over he asked if I was okay.
I replied yes,
Then he said goodnight to eachother three times before hanging up the phone.
I looked at my fingers...
Bloody fingers, bloody fingers, bloody fingers.
I just stared for a moment not comprehending anything,
I picked up a tissue and wiped my fingers off.
Bloody fingers, bloody fingers, bloody fingers.
I do not regret.
We listened to eachother over the phone three more times after that,
Then we met in person.
I was nervous my voice was shaking.
It was like the first phone before we ever listened to one another,
He didn't make do anything I didn't want to do.
Except make me laugh,
Though I know all good things end...
You may think I'm being selfish discarding him,
I think of it as saving myself from the pain of seeing him reject me.