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Star bright Star light... first star I see tonight... I wish I may... I wish I might ... Have the wish I wish tonight.
I wish to be dead to save the world.
The darkness closes in 'I can't smile'
Smiling faces surround me 'Get away. It hurts...it hurts.'
A joke is told. I smile. The darkness recedes.
But it pounces again. I retreat to the deepest part of my soul.
'I'll die if it saves them'
I wake up. There's no light.
I go to school. Hide the hurt behind my eyes.
I slip. He sees moves along like he didn't.
I fill up with a new emotion. Rage. Eternal Hate.
Love.
Indecesion wells up inside. Love or Hate?
Then I remember.
I must die. Save the world a great deal of pain.
Sever the earthly bonds. Become distant.
Save everybody the pain. Of having known me.
The goodbyes.
I'm the cause, the downfall.
All for the sake of peace.
Life is lie not worth living.