...it's killing me.
Augh.
Heck yes I'm sick.
But not like "cough wheeze".
I'm sick as in, "WHATTHEHECKISYOURFREAKINGPROBLEMLEAVEMETHEHELLALONE." sick.
If you get it.
Which you don't.
Gah.
It's not like anybody does. I sound so pathetic right now, but it's so true!
I've been using my stress notes lately. Mr. Heath says that you should smile and laugh, even if it's fake.
I feel so fake. It's all I've been doing lately.
Ted hasn't called me back yet. I wonder if he's still on his walk...
I hate it when you zip up your pants and then the zipper slowly slides down during the day...but you prolly don't.
I also love the word "prolly".
I'm going bowling tonight with my mom, Karen, Melinda, and Melinda's [highly irritating] kids Bobby and Alli.
- sigh -
Oh, I'm jumping with joy.
If I had a heart, it'd hurt.
But I don't.
I sound like one of those corrupted teens.
I don't want to be corrupted.
I'm not even sure if I'm using that word right.
Some people use it for sex.
Ew.
Sex is pretty gross.
Everybody thinks I'm obsessed with it because I crack jokes about it.
Oh, neh.
I can't wait for Monday.
Sex Ed starts.
The sooner it does the sooner it's over.
I feel like I'm using enter too much.
If I don't, the words will stretch my entry.
I can't have that.
For some reason I kinda feel like I don't have any real friends.
I mean, I have friends, I have a best friend, I have a few guy friends.
But....I don't know if they're fake.
I mean, not to sound pathetic or self-centered [which I'm sure she'd say I sound like.], but, nobody pays attention to me as often as they used to.
Maybe I'm getting boring. Or maybe they're realizing I really am a huge jerk [which would make them a bit slow to catch on] and that they should ditch me.
I don't care, but I do at the same time.
And now she gets all the attention.
She gives me dirty looks, too.
I want to nail her in the jaw.
Maybe her teeth would go through her top lip. I was talking about that to Ted and Maggie at lunch once.
It was pretty funny.
Speaking of Ted, he still hasn't called back. Maybe I could call him before I go bowling so he can tell me what to do.
This journal entry is kinda long.
But I don't feel the need to stop.
Maybe I should start writing a story.
I could use Kai.
He's my new OC.
I love him to death. I'm sure if he was real we'd be best buddies.
Of course, I'd like Mandy more.
But still.
Kai.
Yay.
I also need to get around to renaming my OC Luna.
Luna's not the right name for her character.
I'm not even sure if she likes the moon.
Meheheh.
I'll go look up baby names later.
I should pick a Swedish one.
Or an Australian name.
Like Laurel.
But that's a guy's name.
To me, anyways.
I'll have Noxxie have a big brother. He'll be Laurel.
Too bad Noxxie is gay. [Noxxie is another OC.] Nox'd be so cute with Luna.
- shrug -
Oh well.
I should stop typing now.
My wrists are starting to hurt.
Luckily, they're cut free.
I realize I'm crying more than I used to.
I cried TWICE this month.
HOLY CRAP.
Normally I cry twice in a YEAR.
On the brighter side of life:
- I'm going to Florida to check out my sister's college! SQUEE! <3
- I'm taking Mandy to go see L: Change the WorLd on April 29th!
I CAN'T BELIEVE IT'S IN AMERICA. I'M GONNA BLOW UP 'CAUSE I'M SO EXCITED.
I just hope there aren't fangirls there.
I'd have to kill them.
I think I'll wear my 'electric pants' to the movie.
And my L shirt, obviously.
Meheh.
Goodbye.
Augh.
Heck yes I'm sick.
But not like "cough wheeze".
I'm sick as in, "WHATTHEHECKISYOURFREAKINGPROBLEMLEAVEMETHEHELLALONE." sick.
If you get it.
Which you don't.
Gah.
It's not like anybody does. I sound so pathetic right now, but it's so true!
I've been using my stress notes lately. Mr. Heath says that you should smile and laugh, even if it's fake.
I feel so fake. It's all I've been doing lately.
Ted hasn't called me back yet. I wonder if he's still on his walk...
I hate it when you zip up your pants and then the zipper slowly slides down during the day...but you prolly don't.
I also love the word "prolly".
I'm going bowling tonight with my mom, Karen, Melinda, and Melinda's [highly irritating] kids Bobby and Alli.
- sigh -
Oh, I'm jumping with joy.
If I had a heart, it'd hurt.
But I don't.
I sound like one of those corrupted teens.
I don't want to be corrupted.
I'm not even sure if I'm using that word right.
Some people use it for sex.
Ew.
Sex is pretty gross.
Everybody thinks I'm obsessed with it because I crack jokes about it.
Oh, neh.
I can't wait for Monday.
Sex Ed starts.
The sooner it does the sooner it's over.
I feel like I'm using enter too much.
If I don't, the words will stretch my entry.
I can't have that.
For some reason I kinda feel like I don't have any real friends.
I mean, I have friends, I have a best friend, I have a few guy friends.
But....I don't know if they're fake.
I mean, not to sound pathetic or self-centered [which I'm sure she'd say I sound like.], but, nobody pays attention to me as often as they used to.
Maybe I'm getting boring. Or maybe they're realizing I really am a huge jerk [which would make them a bit slow to catch on] and that they should ditch me.
I don't care, but I do at the same time.
And now she gets all the attention.
She gives me dirty looks, too.
I want to nail her in the jaw.
Maybe her teeth would go through her top lip. I was talking about that to Ted and Maggie at lunch once.
It was pretty funny.
Speaking of Ted, he still hasn't called back. Maybe I could call him before I go bowling so he can tell me what to do.
This journal entry is kinda long.
But I don't feel the need to stop.
Maybe I should start writing a story.
I could use Kai.
He's my new OC.
I love him to death. I'm sure if he was real we'd be best buddies.
Of course, I'd like Mandy more.
But still.
Kai.
Yay.
I also need to get around to renaming my OC Luna.
Luna's not the right name for her character.
I'm not even sure if she likes the moon.
Meheheh.
I'll go look up baby names later.
I should pick a Swedish one.
Or an Australian name.
Like Laurel.
But that's a guy's name.
To me, anyways.
I'll have Noxxie have a big brother. He'll be Laurel.
Too bad Noxxie is gay. [Noxxie is another OC.] Nox'd be so cute with Luna.
- shrug -
Oh well.
I should stop typing now.
My wrists are starting to hurt.
Luckily, they're cut free.
I realize I'm crying more than I used to.
I cried TWICE this month.
HOLY CRAP.
Normally I cry twice in a YEAR.
On the brighter side of life:
- I'm going to Florida to check out my sister's college! SQUEE! <3
- I'm taking Mandy to go see L: Change the WorLd on April 29th!
I CAN'T BELIEVE IT'S IN AMERICA. I'M GONNA BLOW UP 'CAUSE I'M SO EXCITED.
I just hope there aren't fangirls there.
I'd have to kill them.
I think I'll wear my 'electric pants' to the movie.
And my L shirt, obviously.
Meheh.
Goodbye.
SONG LYRICS OF THE DAY: "Now I can shoot a gun to kill my lunch, and I don't have to love a thing too much." -- Weekend Wars by MGMT.
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Community Member
That...was a LOT of angst...
Like...angstier than Roxas angst!
And..and...and...fake friends?!?!?!
You....you don't think that about me, do you?