i feel SO terrible, i made Nikki cry. I MADE HER CRY! i dont know if ill ever get over this one. emo heres the story......
I called her on the phone yesterday to see if she was still coming over today. she said it was okay and that she would come over , but only after she finished her homework. i asked her to do it then so we wouldnt have a problem today. we had a problem today......when she was supposed to be getting to my house, she called and said she couldnt come over because she didnt do her homework. i was devastated crying . it was the second weekend in a row that she had done this to me. i was pissed and upset at the same time. she had every chance to make it different, but no. she was too busy playing ******** guild wars......i didnt mind the fact that she had lacrosse practice, no thats ok. but she couldnt tear herself away from the computer long enough to do her homework. she may as well have done it on purpose.
when i told her how i felt she got really upset, and began to cry, i didnt want to say anything because she needs to learn that if she really wants to see me then she's GOTTA do what she needs to FIRST. not put it off till the last second and not be able to see me at all.....but mainly i didnt say anything for fear that I would start crying too. i just felt so terrible that i wanted to just break the promise we had with each other and slash my arm open on the spot (ive only actually done that once and thats when we made the promise.) i cant even describe how upset i was, im so sorry, and Nikki, if you read this then you should know, i will ALWAYS love you and no matter how much you or I screw up, that will never EVER change heart
 Mick Ryans · Sun Mar 15, 2009 @ 09:05pm · 0 Comments |
