"If this is life, I'll say goodbye."
I want to talk to Steven really badly, but I never know when he's online and stuff. He makes my day all better and stuff. Have you ever thought about how weird love is? Probably not, since I'm the only dork that thinks about stuff like that. But it's like, you can't help who you fall in love with. I mean, it's not like I meant to fall in love with Steven. It sounds like I'm not happy being with him, but he makes me the happiest girl in the world. I can't describe it, but he's just amazing. I know he doesn't really feel the same way about me, because I can just feel it, but I don't mind. Because not many people can have feelings for me. To tell you the truth, I don't see myself being loved all that much, or even close to getting married. I just feel like nobody would ever love me enough for that to happen. I'm just an annoying person, and I never shut up, so at first everyone hates me. Not that they stick around with me long enough to start liking me. Steven didn't do that though. Not that I know...You can never really know if someone loves you or not. All you have is their word, they could very easily be lying. Sometimes, I wish I could actually know if Steven loves me the way I love him. That's all I do now.
Hope.
Wish.
Hope
Hope.
Wish.
There's nothing more I can do with the subject. It's either he loves me or not. I don't know why I'm making such a big deal out of this, but I don't know. I felt like writing, and Steven's always in my mind.
If Steven's actually reading this, which I highly doubt, because nobody would waste their time reading this, I love you hun. And I love you a lot. You should know that. And I hope that you love me too.
Oh look, there's that silly old hope again.
