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i got call from a driend of mine who i havnt talked to in awhile. i was so happy the words of her sent my heart to the sky. from what i could hear nothine had changed.^^ but tell i asked....she told theres alot of ppl moving out and the kids i ahad grow up with have been dropping out as well they move, having a baby or droped out kicked out, run away, or drugs. my heart droped to my feey. i asked myself "how cant this be happening to...to the ppl who iv know all my life grow up with, talk with had crushes with and loved with al my heart. how could this be happening" it didnt seem real to me. i thought i couldnt stand to go back and see my old house and the old rottening now emty house of these friends who are gone and theres familys who are stay there. how would i look if i with to a door and asked for some one who wasnt there any more. Or what would i say or look like when i saw wha they have become. how they talked would changed as well and if not that how they act. then my friend my best friend who i loved with all my heart...how will i act when i see her..to hear that she been doing drugs. no not the same person i knew or hanged out with or went her house then back to mine. cry how can i say hi o her and see every thing at has changed. i sound like a fool a dumn fool who hates change but i do it all the time change that is. i change what i eat at school what i do at home the way i walk....so it shouldnt be hard... she ketp talking not knowing the soft quit treas down my face. they wenrt quit any more after hearing that a boy i knew had died. he live right around the couner from me..i got off the phone after that.....

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