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Hey I um have some bad news.
My father died today and it sucks because it is valentine's day today.
He had a heart attack so he went into open heart surgery. Me and my mother were at the hospital for 3 days straight.
I probably wont be on for a while because I just dont know what the ******** to do. Neither does my mom know what to do but hopefully i can carry her through this without having an emotional meltdown.
I guess it hasent fully set in to me yet. Im not gunna turn into some emo b***h or anything but im running out of things to keep me busy. I really dont want to go to school and having my friends see me crying. And the worst part about this whole thing is that every valentines day, the day you're supposed to be with your lover and happy, my father's death will always be associated with it. He was the best father to me because he was my mentor, my rolemodel, and he was my first friend. He always cared for me, taught me good from bad, gave me knowledge, and he was always there for me.
Last, if you have a father tell him that you love him before it's too late because a day before he had a heart attack we got into a arguement I can't even remember why now and I didnt say that i loved him until the moment he started flatlining. Life is so fragile and can be taken away so quickly.
I just hope he forgave me for what i did. I just hope he heared me when i said i loved him but, I just know he is watching down on me right now.
Just always be nice to everyone because if you get mad at one of your best friends and they die before you say sorry you will blame yourself for their death forever and you will not be able to forgive yourself, just like me.
Please in your prayers pray for my dad and my mom's wellbeing. If something happend to her I wouldn't know what to do because me and her are the last remaining memebers of my family.

R.I.P. Troy. You are forever loved and never forgotten.