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Can you feel it? Can you feel my blood running cold? I can. Are my lips tinged blue yet? That pretty deadly blue? I can’t hear the rain, but I know it’s beating down on me. This is frightening, these sounds… The sounds of silence… They’re surrounding me. Silence wants to watch my close my eyes for the last time… It lays in wait of my last breath. Why do the stars seem so much closer tonight? Is this really it? Is this really how it ends? I never got a chance to say goodbye, to apologize to the people I’ve wronged. I have so many regrets, I can feel my heart slowing… Beat… Beat…..Beat…..Beat…… I know I’m dying… Yet I feel no pain. I’m scared, but I’m not numbed by my fear. Will you find my body? Lying by the trees? Or will you see it hanging? Where I fell from my spot…

I never thought it would tighten itself, I though I would have time to grab the rope. It was just so wet, it was just so cold… I forgot to take it off when I changed my mind. It’s so much colder now, I’m fading… I’m leaving this world… I’m sorry, I never got to say goodbye. I’m sorry, I never got to apologize. Pray for me, to whatever god you have. Don’t let me go to hell. I’m too weak for hell, though I’m too stained to go to heaven…
Will I be curse to walk the earth? Between both worlds? Maybe I can haunt you… Maybe… Maybe I’ll get a second chance… Maybe… Just maybe… forgive me… I’m… I’m growing ever weaker… I lo…ve…..

And so it went, her last breath was spent, and her eyes closed in the starless night… She hung herself from the gallows tree, but not so purposefully.