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This is to a girl who has already found another, yet I still love her:

Through the days I've known you,
I have always loved you,
but I know that is not my place,
there is already someone else you hold dear.

I am glad for your happiness, yet I drown in sorrow,
for every minute, I regret my past actions with you,
I wish I could throw my feelings away,
I wish I could drown them, yet I never want to forget you.

As I met you, I knew my feelings would grow,
yet I hid them in my insecurity,
I wish I had told you sooner, but I was afraid of the pain,
To be able to know you, and be with you would take away this pain,
yet you block me out, driving me away.

I can never tell you why I am still feeling this way, I just can't find the answer,
and I would rather live my life in pain then see you cry,
perhaps someday you could look back and see that you left me,
I pray that I will still be waiting for you then.

All Kingdoms fall, and someday, my love, my feelings will too,
Though my deepest feelings, my curse, seem never ending,
I just don't know when I would ever have a chance,
the winds of time are calling, so now I leave my love for you,
I wish I could have been a better person then,
perhaps then I would have had my soul released from this dark sanctuary of sorrow.