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honey please don't. i know that feeling. i have it all the time. it isn't a good feeling to walk around with is it? and it makes it hard to deal with things and people, because once you come to terms with how you feel about yourself it is hard to tell if you dislike something. or if you are just saying that when you really hate yourself more. it is hard to go on like that. it makes life hard doesn't it? it is something that is hard to come to terms with and when you do you don't like it anymore then you did before, do you? please don't think that way. it isn't good. i feel like that a lot, and it makes it hard to deal with anything. i can never tell if i have come to terms with it or if i just hate myself even more then i did before. and if i didn;t have you, well i just don't know what would happen to me. you mean more to me then anything. though i can be very stubborn, and don't always like to say things to people this is something that i have never told anyone before. not even my closest friends. I hate myself kevin. it i hard to give good advice when i don't even know how to deal with this feeling myself. and it isn't just i hate how i look. i hate everything about me. i just don't know what to say, but i wish that somehow i could help you. in some way, in any way. i just don't know how and i want to so bad. please tell me what i can do to help. please kevin, please.