June 17, 2008 - Tuesday
Writing whats on my mind....
Current mood: sleepy
Category: Life
Time- 2:06am
Hello, My name is Betheni Keanaaina^^
I am writing today just to get out what is on my mind within these past few weeks that have gone by. First things first I came back from ROTC Summer Camp located in San Antonio Camp Bullis on June 7th. I spent a week bettering myself at this camp and enduring the hardships of challenges that came my way. Some of them being teamwork, obstical courses, a fifty foot rappelling tower, MRE's (>.< wink , Hard labor of PT, waking up at 3AM in the morning to get ready for PT and take care of personal business, Drown proofing, marching for long periods of time, marching a 3.5 mile trail, cleaning latrines (bathrooms), having to take bullsh*t from the cranky girls in your barracks who have no respect for ROTC and that camp let alone anyone else in the barrack, taking showers along with many other naked girls who bi*ch at you if you turn around and try to get out so they assume your looking at them *sigh*, staying out in the hot Texas sun all day in BDUs that make you want to strip yourselfs and scream bloody murder, Screaming out cadences, yelling out the Alpha motto everytime we go to attention, trying to make our voices louder in repetance when another company would be close by and challenge us, and just so much agonizing stuff that me and many other teenagers had to go through in that one week. I know that seems like a lot or it doesn't if your in the Army but it is a lot for a teenager!
When I was on my way to camp on the charter bus along with kids from Killeen and the other cadets from my school I was confronted by Christopher Valmores who rode by my side the whole trip to the camp. As we were talking he says that I was still confusing him about how I felt about him. I told him I still had feelings for him but they weren't anything that strong you know? I tell him I dont want anything like my last Ex-boyfriend to happen again or any of the bad things I've done in the past to happen either. We both agree but he had to be so stupid in as to say that he so-called "Loves" me. AAANNNDD that is what drew the last straw and really hurt me. He had a girlfriend at the time and the p***k confesses his unbound love for another woman...AGAIN? That was taking things to far, I was utterly confused and spent the whole time at summer camp looking for him, I eventually quit because I knew it was stupid to continue. But another event happened the person who I relied on to talk to Chris was the person I started to like in the end and his name is Joshua Losel. He is really sweet and in fact I'm on the phone with him right now^^. But yeah life is good^^ I have guys chasing me left and right but I don't like most of them except two one being Josh the other being Jesse^^. Josh in my taste is a sweet guy and I always call him "Mr.Holy-Boy" because he hasn't done a lot of things bad. I will finish this up later but till then thank you for staying and reading my rambbling thoughts^^.
 Waipahe_Puuwai · Mon Jan 05, 2009 @ 12:34am · 0 Comments |
