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Feeling like a lonely bachelor right now
All I feel like doing for new years is sitting at an empty bar
Jukebox playing slow sad Christmas songs
A drink in hand
I would stare solemnly down at it
Swirling ice in a dark rich liquid
Memories of my life so far would flash into my mind
A heavy sigh would escape my lips and I would take a long swig
The last whatever of 2008
The last song
The last sale
The last TV show
The last book
The last meal
The last breath

Remembering the pain
Remembering the hurt
Remembering the boy I will never see again

I wonder
What his family feels right now
But I know
They feel like me
But more
And god does it hurt
The bonds that hold my heart together
Being slowly ripped apart
My first year without him
Their first new year without
Collin
Always seems to come up
Well
I know I’ll
Be counting
The days
He is gone

Another year
Another stage in the game of life
Another set of actions and courses

Fate and destiny resets itself
Changing courses
Ready for a new ride
A new set of choices
The new year
Brings in the new emotions
Brings in new people
Kicks out old people
Some people
Are lucky to stay

As for me
Per usual
I’ll sit in my room
And at midnight

I’m not sure
What I’ll do.


So
Whatever you do
Whoever you are
Have a good time
Have
The time
Of your life.