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I feel used and abused and the pain is unbearable.
I hate myself for what i have done to any of my friends who have gone through what i am going through now. I lashed out on them for being that way i am acting now
I am such a ******** hypocrite.
i wish i was dead
but dont cry for me, dont pitty me, dont give me your meaningless words of comfort.
my self loathing and death wish are my own fault
you can't help me.
I HATE MYSELF FOR LOVING YOU
and so here are some qoutes from songs, yeah i know i am lame, but they show how i feel
"she comes on like a crippled play thing the spine is just a string" i am a crippled play thing
"I want to mix our blood and put it in the ground so you can never leave"
"are you suffering? are you suffering? i want to see your suffering, i want to see your pain"
"the pain to pure to hide bridges of sighs, meant to conceal lovers LIES"
"you say you will never leave me, but i a almost afraid to beleavie it." why? cause you DID
"you killed me, a kind of murder when nobody dies, but i dont suppose youd understand"
"I know every trick you played, whore you layed, dime you stole, i know where you sleep"
"today im dirty i want to be pretty, tommorrow i know that im just dead"
"let the record show, that you murdered me, in the coldest blood with your own to hands"
"Just a car crash away"
"Don't break my heart, and i won't break your heart shaped glasses" if only you had some, i would shatter them
"take your hatred out on me, make your victim my head, you never ever beleived in me i am your tournaquet"
"murder kill happy rape, murder kill happy happy rape, kill her"the end was my own
"I hate the hater i rape the raper"
"talking s**t when you cant even step in it"
"******** IT"
"suicide is painless, it brings on many changes, and i can take or leave it if i please"
"I LOVE YOU SO MUCH YOU MUST KILL ME NOW"
does lifemate mean anything to you? i guess not.....