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grrr!!! ok... so i am on gaia, doing all the holiday things... cuz i love those @ the shops... and paul has been out, getting KH... and when he came back... he was playing the game, and then he had to go... and we were talking here on aim, i told him he could call my cell... but i guess he didnt want to... and i was asking him to look @ things and he was too busy for that, and thats understandable... but being blown off for a video game? i guess i get whats comming to me, cuz i told him that i would just talk to him later, cuz our conversation was dead, and i was sick of trying to make it move when it was clearly stuck. and he took me up on that offer... no question. he thought i was leaving, but im not... i have to stay and collect them all... cuz thats just how i am. but i wish he was here to @ least talk to me while i do it. the first night of break, and im always up as l8 as possible. 2 weeks of being brain dead... i want to start A.S.A.P..... i guess hes taken it to the next level. brain dead wasnt enough, he had to be heart dead too. things are starting to get really messed up with me and him.... and something tells me after break things will be different... maybe for the good... but if things continue the way they are now, it will be for the worse. i love him and all... but im carrying his weight... and its really hard cuz i cant even carry my own.