Two nights ago now,some cruel a**hole poisoned one of my beloved cats:Tora.He passed away after about two hours of agony.I knew he wouldn't make it through the night;it was one of the most painful realization I've gone through in quite some time.I haven't cried so hard in years.But I'm done crying.Now I just feel angry.At whoever committed this unforgivable cruelty,and myself for my utter helplessness.
Normally I have four stages of mourning:Acceptance of the loss;grief,the period in which I cry a lot and tend to isolate myself from everyone else;rage at pretty much everything and everyone,though sometimes,like this particular loss,the rage is directed in a more specific direction;and depending on my current mental/emotional stability at the time,recovery or a much deeper depression.
Still,I find comfort in the knowledge that he's safe in the Afterworld;he won't feel pain there.And I still have Lukretia with me,so,I have a feeling this period of mourning won't last too long.
On a happier note;I'll be starting college pretty soon now.I'm happy about that.I think recovery is on the way.
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Lilithmae's Twilight Zone
Delve into my mind,where many my thought there dwell.
Stay a little while,I welcome you to Hell.
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